MyDirtyLittleDarkSecrets And My JuicyLavishAndFlourishingLife

Sunday, February 22

Because love is a 2 way road.

I`m tired of running this 1 way road myself.

I can`t see the light out of this endless race.

And finally when i take the time to rest and to look down.

It's all bruises all over.

That was when i realised......

that i have neglected myself all these while.

................ I feeel so tired now.

I can`t find that energy to finish the race anymore.

1:34 AM
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Friday, February 20

Weird to say, there's too much on my mind now.

An overwhelming influx of information that it

sort of engulfed my senses with it.

Although there isn`t much personal time

left given the schedule now,

yet every minute and every second,

that omnipresent one seems to be on my mind.

I've been feeeling helpless and lost with my own emotions.

................... that i don`t know what to do with them anymore.

Things seems so simple yet so difficult to settle.

I`m so confused with the whole string

of thoughts running in my mind.

................ that i`m unwillingly to think anymore.

You're still the air i breathe.

Feelings still exist strongly.

I know promises're not forever.

But somehow i wish to believe in the subtle illusion it's.

I wish to believe in you

Wish to believe all's true.

But harsh reality always dashes one dreams.

When you break the new in a beautiful weekday,

I was totally lost of words to say to you.

Thoughts of it happening just hurts me like crazy.

When you ask me whether if it's you.

I answer it's not.

Actually it's not true.

I dare not be true to you.

You meant so much to me.

Deep inside, i really think of you like crazy.

I really love you.

11:58 PM
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Thursday, February 19

The date is confirmed.

I have got no choice now.

I need to go for it.

I am super scared and worried.

I am afraid to see the sight of needles poking my body.

I hate to see myself lying in bed feeling weak.

I hate to see myself tearing every night before i goes to bed

and every morning i wake up.

I have no idea what i can do anymore.

Pray pray pray.

Will i be put to sleep and aftermath, i can't wake up?

Will you miss me if suddenly i`m gone forever?

........... I do. I really do.

11:45 PM
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Things that often look sweet on the surface..

........ are normally the most bitter in within.

3:18 AM
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Wednesday, February 18

I`m so lost in this confusion.

Right or Wrong.

One mistake can crush everyting you have.

I don`t want to make the wrong move.

I really think of you. think of your presence.

Maybe you're long gone away from me?

Are you? Are you?

How i wish Edwin`s here with me right now.

..................... Only he can understand the agony

i`m going through now.

1:11 AM
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Tuesday, February 17

Random?!

I love LiLi.

Despite seeing her last week, i miss seeing her face yet and again. :(

Recent pics

Retarded. hehe

12:15 AM
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Monday, February 16

This's what i feeel now:

Girls're emotional. Guys're not.
Girls think in many different ways. Most guys think in one way. (I meant straight when interpreting situations.)
Girls tend to be sensitive to many small little tiny issues. Guys tend to overlook "less" important issues.
Girls cry over every single issue that breaks their heart. Guys never cry even when the world falls apart.
Girls expect to be placed as first priority. Guys will only place work as their first priority.
Girls expect to be pampered every single second. Guys only pampers when absolutely necessary. (like on the brink of breakup)
Girls can spend millions and zillions of dollars on cosmetics, make up etc. Guys can only spend on electronics, cars and games.
Girls feel the need to be reassured at times. Guys think one reassurance is enough to last a lifetime.

No wonder when it boils down to resolving conflicts and diffferences. Girls and guys can never meet eye to eye.

"Guys come from mars. Girls come from venus."

...................... Highly agreed.

1:21 AM
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Sunday, February 15

very amazed by 'someone' who can reads my mind like a book.

someone who loves to nags and nags and nags at me

but whenever this person nags, i can feel the heart!

everytime i`m down, this 'someone' will go,

'sayang' 'sayang'

hehe

Guess who is the 'someone' i`m referring to?!

loveyouuuuuuuu

*hugs*

1:52 AM
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Saturday, February 14

Love is missing someone whenever you are apart;

but somehow feeeling warm inside

because you are close in heart.

1:40 AM
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Friday, February 13

Life has been reallly busy.

Kinda lazy to update my blog too.

hehe.

This Sem`s ending in two weeks time.

Then, i will have my six weeks break.

And i`m going to avoid stepping into clementi station

if there's don`t need to til April.

Life has not been going on well for me when year 2009 starts.

Everyting is not smooth be it work, studies and oso health!

Many shockingly news coming in one at a time.

Well, this year lunar new year's considered not bad.

Going over to different friend's n relative hse to bai nian.

At the same time, friends coming over to my hse to bai nian too.

Late nights and chattings always spells 'love'.

Had awesome dinner at royal park hotel during lunar new year too.

Won lucky draw.

So happy. hee

Yesterday, right after work, headed down to meet

up with two groups of friends.

Met LL and BX at IMM for dinner.

Had our meal at baystreet 21.

Nice and cosy place.

After our meal, LL announced two goood news to us.

First new, she`s getting married on the month of May.

Second new, i shall keep it confidential.

She will held her wedding dinner at Malaysia

(forgot which part of Malaysia she told us.)

Will wait for her wedding card to send to us.

Anyway, we`ll likely book air ticket and hotel to attend her big day.

Can`t wait!!! oh my god.

Her ROM date's fixed too. 21st March, Sat. :)

Then at 9 plus, rushed down to westmall starbucks

to meet up with Dyme and SE.

Intention, to celebrate dyme belated bdae and passed her bdae gift.

Have a goood session with the girls n i hope this`ll go on till e day we're married n give birth to our kids.

hahaha.

Think too much.

But we seriously talk about our marriage n vice versa that night.

hehe

Home sweet home 12 midnight.

Anyway, happy advance Valentine day to all my dear friends.

(Be it single or attached)

*hugs*

2:42 AM
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