MyDirtyLittleDarkSecrets And My JuicyLavishAndFlourishingLife

Sunday, October 28

ok. What`s have been happenin the past weeks?!

So like sch had started for me.

I`m havin a super duper busy life right now.

Somehow i felt that i`ve beeen really busy til the extent that i could hardly breathe

and might even faint any moment.

I`m serious.

I`m so deprived of sleep.

Was down with eye ulcer one week ago.

Super unlucky.

Had 2 days MC initially.

Eye did not recover after 2 days.

Went back for eye review n the doctor gave

me another 3 days MC.

However, did not take the 3 days MC n went back to work to rush on my payrolll durin weekends.

Was so worried that i could not finish up the

payroll tis mth on time but..

Glad that i made it!

HEHE.

At that time, i realised sweety was down with eye ulcer too. We were complainin on how swollen our eyes looked like and how painful it`s.

hahaha.

This week, a colleague of mine was down with

swollen eyes.omg.

Hopefully his eyes gets alittle better now.

Shall asked him whn i returned work next Mon.

Well, Grandma health condition is none

gettin any better neither.

She was admitted to e hospital for several times.

In out in out and vice versa.

Wheneva she`s admitted, she would cry to

request to go back home.

Been tearin so bitterly this month.

It`s so difficult to hold back those tears i`ve.

Again, i`ve to admit that i hate it hate it HATE IT

so much whn i see my mum cried.

I know grandma condition is inevitable,

we should face e fact and spent these

moments with her meaningfully

but it`s juz hurts us so much to see her

in such painful condition.

I oways tink that my grandma is e most LUCKIEST person on earth.

She had her own children

(be it her sons or daughters)

and all of her grandchildren who`s so dear to her.

And i even`ve a cousin who took one month leave to take care and spent time with her.

This`s partly one reason why i loved my family

so much.

Really adoress them to bits.

Attended Irene cousin weddin ceremony today.

And every girl is reallly gorgeous durin thier wedding. And she reallly looked oh-so-gorgeous today.

Stay blissful my dear girl.

It`s nearly 2am now. Shall go sleep now.

Gonna woke up tml early to do my tutorials and visited my grandma after that. Busy week comin out next weeek too.

Sweet dreams.

2:03 AM
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Sunday, October 7

Friday was a super unlucky day for me.

All four unlucky stuffs happened in

just half a day durin work.

Tell me who could be so UNLUCKY like ME?!

ya, karma they called it.

Things`ve not been goin on well smoothly

for me these few days.

That goes to some of my loves ones ard me.

Life`s oways full of ups n downs.

One moment we`re on nine cloud, e other moment we`re in immense sadnesss.

Just a moment ago, i saw an article,

it stated tat;

"Life`s like an onion. You seek it off one layer at

a time n sometimes u weeep."

so true..

haha

And sometimes, we don`t remember

how important it`s to appreciate e small little thing

tat`re happenin everyday in life.

We took for granted e understandin

tat was given to us.

If only...

all it takes is a

'smile'

and a

'word of kindness'

to make someday day,

life would be so beautiful!:)

Something`s troubling me lately.

I duno why but i juz feeel tat we`ve drifted apart.

You`re not e friend i used to know.

Not e friend tat i wanna throw all my

troubles for u to listen.

Not e friend that`ll give e BEST advises to me.

In short, u`ve changed.........

I misses e old YOU!

Reallly. :(

I duno if e problem lies on me

or m i over-sensitive.

All along, i wanted to text u to tell u

how i feeel but sumting holds me back.

A feeelin tells me tat i should not!

If only u`re willing to speak up n tells

me how u feeel.

If only.....

Why m i labelled e most 'silliest' girl? Sometimes, frankly speaking; i really can`t bear to cast awy my loved ones aside whn they`re feeelin so low. Especiallly when they called u unintentionally to share thier problems with u.

Stated as for an example: A friend called me few days ago durin midnite (1am) to share sum stuffs w me. I was goin to fall asleeep since i got to work e next day when he called. It was the first time he called n shared his stuff with me. All it takes for me is to listen to him. And he told me tat he feeels so much better after throwin everyting out. As a listener, how would u feeel?! Seriously, simple ting like tat could bring a smile to my face coz i`ve made someone mood feels better even if i dun reallly give advises to him.
:)

Anyway, I`m gettin alittle worried now. Sch`s startin in 7 days time. I`ve not prepared anyting for sch yet. Not even buyin a laptop first!! tt`s so scary. Remembered in e past, whn sch`s abt to start, i`ve started buyin my wateva scrap books, stationery etc etc way before sch starts. And now, i realised nx weeek`s e only weeek tat i muz get everyting ready.....

And and took tis frm sum webby. i found it very meaningful! Read it! so let`s start spreadin LOVE to everyone ard us! hahaha:):)

Last but not least:

Happy Birthday Ken! (6th Oct)

Counting down: 7 days to go ~

5:58 AM
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Friday, October 5

Three friends birthdays cuming out next weeeek.

hehehe.

I`ve gt serious mood swing recently.. One moment i`m happy and within seconds, i`m feeeelin so down.

The next moment i`m back to cheerful mood

and within seconds, i`m back to melancholic mood again.

The cycle juz repeats many times again n again within a day.

Stupid moodswings.

Work`s like omg.

Rushed one deadline, e other one appeared.

One down, one up.

So it`s like nv stopped makin deadlines every mth.

On another tone, I misses and tink of my super sweeet

girlfriends badly whn i`m at work. I tink of my beloved

girls n sweetest jige whn all of em smsed

me n tel me they misses me.

I tink of sweetheart whn she sent me good nite msg.

I tink of sweety whn she smsed me suddenly with

five simple words;"darling, i love you! muacks."

HAHAHAHA.

The list juz goes on and on and on.

Really loves ya guys so much so much so much.

Although we oways meet up n catch

up with each other at least once a mth,

i still think

"IT`S NOT ENOUGH!!!"

And and and........

I tink of........ I shall keeep it to myself.

Juz 2 hrs ago, i was chattin w a frend on e msn. He points

out a very good qns to me. We talked out n stated different reasons n opinions. I would say none of e reasons we stated `re wrong. In life, if we sees tings on a better point of view,

there`s no right or wrong answer. Really`ve to depend

on e individual.

It`s midnite now. My brain`s tired.

Shall blog a better entry again.

Probably joinin peeps for sentosa outin on Sat.

Gdnite!

PS: Probably i`m e most SILLIEST GIRL on Earth you guys may say.

I can`t help it.

For once, i`m goin to trust my feeelings again.

I apologied for makin someone worried.

Everyting`s fine now.

I`m ok!

Counting down: 10 days to go~

12:32 AM
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