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Hui Yan
6 May 1988
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Tuesday, January 23
A piece of good new! I`m feeling alittle better now. Many thanks to my frends who`ve been there for miee all these while.:) I really adoress n lovess you guys more den i lovesss my eyes.:) Cried out loud can really make a person feels better. Especially it had been keepin it with you for so long. Those encouraging n heartenin words frm e pple whom you treasured closed deep within your heart`re irreplaceable. So much lovessss.
Been really busy e past days.:( I missess out so many outings, gatherins, nites suppers, crazy shoppin, etc etc. Thanks frends for your understandin.:) It would b a super long list if i were to list em all out. Though i only intended to share w some frendx initially, but due to sum instances, i guess it gonna be the opposite. Not to forget some frends who made mi cried and touched again n again. Hopefully all of you sees tis.:) Eight simple words,"You guys are oh-so- special to miee."
I knew i`m abit late. At least better late den never.:) I knew tat two frendx who`re so dear to miee haf started thier private school on Mon. Jiayou. yes yes, put in your very best n everyting gonna be fine.:) muacks.
Oh yes, CNY gonna reach in less den a mth time. I`ve many goals n dreams to fulfil after tat.:) Hopefully tings`ll turn up fine. It takes some time but i wanna try.:)
I`ve finally chatted with CK 2 days ago. I missesss e time whn we got crazy together. U noe how much i missess n treasuress you? Especially whn e darkness fills e sky n my sky turned grey, I`m glad u`re there for miee! Thanks for everyting! I was really surprised whn u rmbed all e stuffs which in e 1st place I dun rmbed tellin you. touched.:) Please be careful n take extra precautions whn u learnt bike. The first ride awarded to miee whn u got your licence yes? HAHA. I love you.:)
Saw kevin goh n his gf on coincidence last week as well too. So surprised.:) It`s abt three or four yrs or so since i saw tis frendx of mine.:) hehe.

You meant so much to miee.:) I loveyou!

11:28 PM
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Wednesday, January 17
Super vexed now.:( Everyting happened so suddenly. Mixed feelings and emotions. I wanted to help but it`s within my limits. I duno wat to do. I`m at a loss! So vexed. This is not gonna be a short term factor stuff.:( And yes, i broke down on Sun nite and on Mon at work. How i wished. 2 more days and...
I L O V E Y O U!:)
Went down to NP on Sat.:) hehe. Saw weeleong there. Saw baohui, yanxian n yenxiang too. Chatted w em awhile.:) Not to mention the event was a success. The society was all so united. cheeers. Did not go home on that day nite as well.
I`m so tired now. Many thanks to my dear frends who`ve been w miee all these while.-( the darkest moment of my life.)
lovesss
PS: i missesss someone so dear and special to mieee.:(

11:37 PM
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Thursday, January 11
The darkest moment of life is back once again!

I cried. This had been keepin it w miee for days to weeks to months since last year till i couldn`t take it animore. Wailed n cried bitterly. Eyes red n swollen.:( Actually i wanted to tok to a frend long ago but....
The outbreak of a BAD NEW last week.:(
I received tis new on my dad actual birthday which falls on 7th Jan. I tot i would receive double joys n happiness on tis day but whn i was told abt tis, my heart sank. I cried again. I never expected tings to turn up to b like tt. I saw her teared once again. Whn i asked her why, she kept saein she had insufficent sleep, and so there`s tears in her eyes. Her eyes turned red n swollen n i could see e immense sadness through her facial expression.

I`m worried for her so does everyone dear to her. U noe pple, e darkest moments of my life eversince i cried on tt very day n e outbreak of a bad new, many activities were postfoned or cancelled bcoz i din go. I knew sum might be angry w miee yet there`s sum understandin ones. I wanted to xplain e whole situation but i duno how to start off w. It`s so complicatin.
I kept prayin n prayin tat tings would turn up fine for her. I cried almost every night. Though everyone tried to hide sum stuffs frm her but everyting had to be revealed sooner or later. I tot report would b out on Tues. It din. Whn i was told tat it`s gonna be out after 2 days, i couldn`t slp at nite once again. So i woke up n forced myself to go to work on Thurs. (which was today)
After work, i called n asked abt e reports.
I cried n i kept cryin.:(
Whn i woke up every mornin, my whole body trembled. worried worried n more worried. I turned on e shower but i was starin infront of e mirror. I could see e pain she suffered. Unexplainable feelings.
I could stil rmb how she reacted whn we sort of tel her e
truth. Whn she started askin, "why must this happened to me?" Everyone turned n looked at each other before we came out w all sorts of reasons in order nt to make her feel sad n suffered more. I can`t bear to leave you dear, so soon coz
I L O V E YOU!
I do n i really do.

10:38 PM
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Friday, January 5
2007 is here. 2006 ended within a snap of my fingers.:) There were lots of ups and downs, loves and tears. I`m glad i`ve overcome every single one of it.:) I`m thankful for my dearest family, relatives and cousins, my friends, past and present colleagues.:)















( PS: Not e complete sets of my family fotos yet.(: )


Remembered whn i was studyin in kindergarden, i so look forward to study in pri.sch. I was so innocent back den?! HAHAHA. At e age of 12, i graduated and scored a pathetic PSLE result and landed up in JVSS. I admit tat i`ve made alot of true friends back den. This`s perhaps one reason why i`m stil in contact w most of my pri.sch friends, organisin pri.sch gatherin and hopin as many peeps`ll turn up for those gatherin.:)












At e age of 13, I`m no longer in my pri.sch days. I noe watever i do, my parents will tel miee 'Strive Your Very Best'. Whatever results it turns out to be, u noe tat u`ve tried n if ever e results turns up to b nasty, do not feel remorseful or discouraged, determined and tel yourself tat it`ll turn up better e next time u tried.:) Which parents wans to c e worst out of thier own kids? Although they`re stil very strict to me durin those times, i`m glad many a times they`re understandin.:)

After 4 years, I noe i`ve disappointed my parents n myself. Sumtimes, if only i could turn back time, i promised i`ll never make e same mistake again. I noe they`re disappointed w miee yet they`re very supportive. I`m contented tat i`ve made a bunch of marvellous frends n today, we`re movin towards to e start of e 7th year friendship.:) I really adoress n lovess u guys as much as i lovess my eyes!:) Of all e little misunderstandin n conflicts between us, we`ve pulled through.=) Tourin all over Singapore such as busy shoppin centres n streets and peaceful beaches and swimmin complex. Late nights til e nx morning n goin back home oni whn all of us`re exhausted. Hopefully our friendship B O N D`ll stay like this for e many years to come. Lovesss.





I came up w my own private study plans in e year 2005 n decisions. Study wasn`t my cup of tea again.=( But makin a bunch of new colleagues n frends makes my life even more beautiful.:) I so hope tat u guys read tis. It does not means tat we`ve yet to see each other for ages, i would 4get all of you. Frankly speakin, I missesss you guys soo much!:) We used to stick together like a family, sharin both rainy n sunny days together, helpin each other to overcome wateva obstacles we`ve and i missess nights suppers w u guys too!:)



Not to forget e short moments w some of my HT pals(ferlyn,huizhen,faizal,kenneth etc), BSN pals n makin new friends at other outlets at work(bifen, etc). I missesss u guys like crazy at e same time too.



End of year 2005 to 2006
It`s a super happenin year over my 18 yrs in life. I made a new bunch of marvellous friends again. My beloved girls, all time favourite sweetest, understandin n macho Jigeee ever, humorous kelvin etc. Not to forget my dearest Mingyu and my current dano colleagues n my 16 retail outlets pretty girls.:) Some outside friends as well. It was awesome to noe u guys.:)








And now we`re livin in e year of 2007! I`ve soo many things in mind tat i wanna do tis year. I hope it`ll be more happenin, more happiness, kisses, surprises, joys and lovess.:) Lots of resolutions in me.:)

In life, friends come and go. I`m happy many of my friends aren`t like tat. Someone told miee;' once a friend entered your life n if he/she left, u`ll haf another grp of new friends enterin your life again.:) Perhaps i`m a self-centred person, i so hope tat wateva new friends entered my life, e presence of old friends`ll stil be there. No matter how busy we`re, I believed the hearts and bonds within us`ll stay together til 'The End Of Time.'

And yes, I lovesss all e people ard miee. Be it family,relatives,cousins,friends n colleaguess. Happy new year peeps and may 2007 be a much more better year for you guys compared to e past years. Muacks.:)


1:37 AM
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Thursday, January 4
Guess wat?! It`s 0210am now and i`m stil here bloggin n blabberin awy.
Happy April Fool!
Happy 20th Birthday NZ!

My dearest cousin. I really lovesss you lots.:) Lovesss her straight-forwardness and strong determination.:) Crazy girl of mine yet always brought lots of funs n happiness to e pple ard her. With her ard, laughter fills e air.:) Work hard in e cumin year three. Always stay crazy, young n pretty! I misses goin high n crazy with you! Let`s mit up bfore your holidays ends k.:)


Lovesss always.:)
Wil be attendin a weddin dinner tml if i`m nt lazy. HAHA. oh yes, chiman`ll be flyin off to HK on 2nd april. The friend hu livess a block awy frm miee but recently, we din even see each other on coincidence at all! How sad?! He`s soo lucky. Havin a long holiday break now. And he`ll b goin there for 4mths. *envy* Enjoy your stay/holidays there.:) It`s a must to mit up once u`re back! Initially, we wanted to gather up w yy together last mth. missesss you lots.
Bon Voyage.:)
and and dearest friends,dun be a fool and get fooled by your friend today! HAHA


2:36 AM
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