MyDirtyLittleDarkSecrets And My JuicyLavishAndFlourishingLife

Monday, October 27

He said:

"I know i won't have a chance to get to see you cry infront of me.

Because before the moment i knew your tears going to fall,

i`ve already make you smile."

:))))))))

Muackkssssssss

11:52 PM
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There is 7 days in a weeek.

But i only heart 2 days per week.

Before i knew it, it's back to busy and saddening weekday once again.

Life's so unpredictable.

Attended two funerals wake.

One at Hougang, the other one at Yishun.

It`s reallly heartbreaking to see a friend teared infront of you.

I know such's unavoidable.

I just want you to be happpy. :)

Weekends're love with lovely girlfriend.

Town on Saturday night and Bugis on Sunday.

After bugis, headed down to JP to`ve a short meet-up with Maggie.

Luckily she gets to break early.

After that, went down to my grandfather house.

They were deciding on where to`ve dinner.

So come to a decision to`ve dinner at JP.

I should`ve met them there. haha

Had dinner, shopped and returned to my grandfather hse again.

Cousin n aunts played mahjong while e rest watched star awards.

Reached home. Showered.

Received a msg frm a friend at 1 plus am.

Asked if i want to meet up with him as he`s feeeling soo down.

Soo.. he reached my place at around 2am.

Glad that he feeels better after throwing everyting out.

At least the boy i used to know's back.:)

I don't think i`ve the time to update tml.

soooo........

Happpppy birthday girl!

It was nice catching up with you 2 weeks back.

I hope you will excel in your photography and stay lovely dovey with ya boyfriend as always ya.:)

3:52 PM
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we can close our eyes to things we don`t want to see,

but we cannot close our heart to things we don`t want to feeel.

1:00 AM
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Sunday, October 26

all i want is just to be happpy.

i reallly reallly want to be happpy.

11:37 PM
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wheneva i say 'quit' infront of you.

you`ll try all ways to make me smile.

never regretted knowing someone like you.

sometimes words reallly can`t describe how much you meant to me.

how important you meant in my eyes.

especiallly the sweetest words that came out from that sweetest mouth of yours;

really brightens up my day.

at least i know even if i`m at the lowest peak of my life,

there`s something (You) to perk me up.

life aren`t that bad afterall.

coz i know u`ll always be there.

thank my dear for always making me smile from within.

i-love-i-love-you too.

i promise. :)

3:15 AM
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Sunday, October 19

Here's something for someone special:

I was chatting with a friend and the conversation goes something like this.

Her: Hello XMG (oooops, it`s e nickname she gives me ever since... LOL. shall not reveal it.) how are u?

Her: You seem down.

HuiYan: Hello lovely. hmmm. full of ups n downs.

HuiYan: How about u?!

Before i reply her, she sent me a sweeet kisssssss.

She's reallly awesome and one understanding friend ever since i know her from day one.

Someone who knows me inside out without me sharing my downs with her.

Coz she can always sense that i`m feeeling low without me sharing it with her first.

She's reallllllllly someone i deeeeply treasures in e past, now and in e future.

Guess who`s she?!

She`s none other than Chin Pei Fang. :)

No wonder we`re both born on May, same horoscope,

only difference is birthday date juz one day before and after each other!

(ooppps i tink i used to blog about this.)

I reallly loveyou so much la.

okok. I tink i shall stop saying how awesome you`re if not it`s going to be a long list here.

hehe

Three simple words short and sweet just for you........

'You-Are-Special!'

Awaiting for our KL trip together soon.:)

8:41 AM
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Have u guys ever experienced being at your lowest peak of your life before?!

Have u guys ever teared so badly that u wished someone`ll be by your side being your happpy pills?!

Have u guys ever feeeel so lost and wants to give up something that you once adoresss and reallly put in 101% effort, lovess and time on it?!

I feeeel so weak so weak.

On e other hand, i reallly`ll like to thanks the following friends; sweeethearts i named it who`ve beeen there for me ever since.:)))

1. Maybeline

2. Mingyu

3. Leaan

4. Christine

5. Kevin

6. Edwin

7. Irene

I hope this will fade away as soon as possible.

7:08 AM
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Wednesday, October 15

I wish that i know my sense of direction.

Like where am i heading to or am i crossing the right path.

All of e sudden, i feel so lost!

I really wish that i`ve a guardian angel beside me currently..

and at e same time, sending me sweet little hugs and kisses.

I have got a realllly sweet girlfriend.

I reallly meant it.

She's reallly sweet.:)

She's one of e awesome friends i`ve ever known for eight years.

(yes, and stilll going on)..

Though i requested 'one smile' from her,

instead she gave me 'three'.

Nothing more to ask for.

You're e best girl!

You make my day! :)

I just wish that you could be by my side now silly so that i

could lie on your shoulder and cry my hearts out!

1:40 AM
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Sunday, October 12

shrugs.

what`ve i been doing during these 6 weeks of breaks?!

I`m so-not-looking forward to tml.

not loooking forward to tml.

not looking forward to tml!

:((((((((

Anyway, can`t believed i bought this.
hehe

Though not as crazy over them as compared to when i`m young.
Afterall, they`re still my favourite-top-band taiwanese singer.
:)

This week has been a fulfiling week.
At the same time, i manage to find alittle time to meet up
with the birthday boy and the birthday girl
whose birthday fallls tml, 13 Oct.
Birthday boy!

Birthday girl! (the 4th girl).

More than a decade friendship and it's still growing strong!

lovessssss.

shall update e rest of the events and photos in e next entry.

I have no mood to update anymore further.

2:24 AM
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Friday, October 10

Every small little things you do, matters.

Just a simple hug or sentence, helps.

Showing appreciation to others, benefits both.

It`s the quality and not the quantity that matters.

2:18 AM
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Tuesday, October 7

Happy Birthday Yikqi! (6 Oct)

I am like so used to having YOU by my side,

being my best listening ear.

You know what, yesterday while on the way home,

u texted me and my tears rolled down again immediately.

I know if u reads this, you'll go; "silly,you're such a crybaby!"

I reallly cannot control my emotional feelings.

I guess when you`re not around, i really miss you so soo much.

On e other hand, the more i see you,

the more i miss you even more.

"L.O.V.E" these four simple letter words...

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When i`m having fun,

My life seems perfect.

When i`m alone,

My life seems vulnerable.

No matter how much love, care and concern our friends give,

Ultimately, you`ll still need someone you love by your side.

At times, I reallly hate myself.

My life seems fine n happy on the cover.

Everyone praise me for being so strong.

But beneath the cover lies a pool of blood,

And a frequent suicidal mind.

8:35 AM
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Sunday, October 5

Last nite I headed to bed but i couldn't sleep.

After that, i found myself crying.

Thought this's not the first time and i wish it doesn't

happen again because it feeels reallly shittty.

Have been having pretty bad nightmares almost everyday.

I am reallly really loooking forward to the month of December.

:))))))))

8:14 AM
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Friday, October 3

Life is always full of loves and tears.

Life is always full of happiness and unhappiness.

Life is always full of friends and enemies.

Life is always full of why, what, when, how, where etc.

If only. if only.

1:57 AM
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Wednesday, October 1

oh shit..

Schoooling's back in one week time. The busy life`s back again sooon. Definitely not looking forward to it because projects, tutorials n exams killls big time.

Other than four friends whose birthdays had just ended last month, I`ve about six friends' birthdays coming up this month. Reallly crazy. One chalet coming up next weeek but it falls on weekday. Cannot ought not to attend because they attended mine. haha. But it`s all right. Loooking forward to it!

hehe

How i wish i could go bkk with e lovely peeeps next week. Sumting crops up on one of e days and in a no way out situation i decided not to go. Very saddening lor. Missess all the FOC (full of craps).:)

Nevertheless, wat has been happening?!

I met up with many lovely friends. (especially my beloved girls n sweetest jige, lovely mingyu etc). Not to forget, yes.. my all time favourite lovely girlfriends (maybeline, yvonne, yikqi) and e guys last friday. Then, headed down to several hotels with my colleague on Monday after work as i`m planning for my company DND. Still working on budgets n ideas to make e event successful. Have been eating reallly good foods recently. Restaurants and vice versa. Gained another kilo again. hais. I should control n this should put to a stop sooon laaa.

And what about work?! I think i will not blog it down here if not a thousand words essay also cannot complete e whole entry. But there's one word i want to say;"sigh!"

You got me deeper than deep and i`m constantly blind.

I'm running around but there's no place to hide.

Everyday you're just starting to become

more and more important to me and..

i just thought that you should know how much you mean to me too.

I am starting to fall deeper and deeper for you.

PS: I don`t understand why i MISSES you even more at night than in the day.

12:01 AM
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