The darkest moment of life is back once again!
I cried. This had been keepin it w miee for days to weeks to months since last year till i couldn`t take it animore. Wailed n cried bitterly. Eyes red n swollen.:( Actually i wanted to tok to a frend long ago but....
The outbreak of a BAD NEW last week.:(
I received tis new on my dad actual birthday which falls on 7th Jan. I tot i would receive double joys n happiness on tis day but whn i was told abt tis, my heart sank. I cried again. I never expected tings to turn up to b like tt. I saw her teared once again. Whn i asked her why, she kept saein she had insufficent sleep, and so there`s tears in her eyes. Her eyes turned red n swollen n i could see e immense sadness through her facial expression.
I`m worried for her so does everyone dear to her. U noe pple, e darkest moments of my life eversince i cried on tt very day n e outbreak of a bad new, many activities were postfoned or cancelled bcoz i din go. I knew sum might be angry w miee yet there`s sum understandin ones. I wanted to xplain e whole situation but i duno how to start off w. It`s so complicatin.
I kept prayin n prayin tat tings would turn up fine for her. I cried almost every night. Though everyone tried to hide sum stuffs frm her but everyting had to be revealed sooner or later. I tot report would b out on Tues. It din. Whn i was told tat it`s gonna be out after 2 days, i couldn`t slp at nite once again. So i woke up n forced myself to go to work on Thurs. (which was today)
After work, i called n asked abt e reports.
I cried n i kept cryin.:(
Whn i woke up every mornin, my whole body trembled. worried worried n more worried. I turned on e shower but i was starin infront of e mirror. I could see e pain she suffered. Unexplainable feelings.
I could stil rmb how she reacted whn we sort of tel her e
truth. Whn she started askin, "why must this happened to me?" Everyone turned n looked at each other before we came out w all sorts of reasons in order nt to make her feel sad n suffered more. I can`t bear to leave you dear, so soon coz
I L O V E YOU!
I do n i really do.
10:38 PM
gimme kisses
