It`s 1am now. Thus gonna blog a long entry before i sleep. The First Experience To Club Momo Sat`s night was e worst day in my entire life. From e very first day i noe her, landed in e same sec. sch. 6 years of frendship since year 2001, we`ve been in e same class for 2 years thus i went to another stream durin sec. 3. But tat doesn`t meant tat our frendship wil fade. We never fails to get together durin recess time, after school or durin wkends; hangin out at nearby shoppin malls, bugis or town areas n etc even til now. The funniest ting`s tat we`re rather closed frendx but we seldom shared our so called 'private life' at all. Once we`ve little conflicts in sch before makes our frendship stronger? Seldom she shares her relationship stuffs w us or neither we noe abt it. yes, i oni found out abt tis after she haf been w e opposite sex for sum time or she kept insistin she isn`t w tat person. ya, i understand tat everyone nids an open space for thier privacy stuffs too.:) i tink e day we went swimmin together makes our bonds even more stronger. U noe whn pple`re sad? they would tel u they`re sad but they would never go into details. Whn u`re a human being, i dun believe you`re born happy all e time. I believed all of us haf emotions too. ya, 'i noe e first ting we would ask e opposite party is to cheer up. dun broad over it animore.' But we`re nt born to look alike, tinks alike etc. Even twins haf different minds, goals n etc. But tt`s our first reaction. Of course we would ask e opposite party e reasons why bt in sum circumstances, if a frendx trusted you, they would share w you bfore u asked em back. I`m nt selfish. tis`s how i feels sumtimes. So back to wat happened. If i knew tat she`s goin off earlier, i would rather not gathered up. Initially, i already tot of 18nov; 'it`s her day'. If e plans`s a very last min decision, i tink she muz haf tel us bforehand too. I dun mind if a frendx`s goin for BGR stuffs or wat so ever. Ya. i noe i`m silly. silly. I cried e moment i reached home. I`m not emotional bt i`m disappointed. Wat`s e point of bein secretive n landed not only a party sad bt it`s more den one. A frendx of mine juz got his licence. So whn i knew tat we`re usin Sat to celebrate her so called birthday, i planned one more surprise stuff for her. In e very first place, I asked tat frendx of mine to meet me at abt 2am, asked him to drive we girls to a place for sum bdae surprise stuff for her again. The moment we meet n i realised she haf to go off earlier, i immediately smsed my frendx to stop all these. Why muz i tink of these stuffs to make a frendx happy? I`m nt frustrated whn she did not do tt to miee on my bdae. In my previous entry, I did sae tat i would see circumstances n i prefer givin. I duno how long`ll our frendship last. For i treasured tis frendship n adoress tis frendship soo much. But wat i got back were lots of disappointments n sadness. I mean we`re 18 now. I couldn`t noe wat`ll happen to us in 5 years time. We might go on separate ways, busy w careers, gettin married n haf a baby child n etc. Life`s so unpredictable. We might lose in touch n went to a far far awy place. ya, i noe you`ll sae i`ve so much of wild imaginations bt i can`t help it. Bcoz to me, i lovess to treasure pple ard miee, for i`m soo afraid to lose all of you n never haf a chance to say i loveyou guys back again. Stil i`m happy tat i stil`ve frendx who`re there for miee today(19 nov) n makin my day back to sunshine again. I can`t wait til Dec to arrive too. :)
