Let miee blog an entry bfore goin over to my grandparents hse. =))
All along, i wished to b a happy person. It`s nt tat I`m nt happy w my current life right now. Sumhow or rather, i feel so melancholic at times. I noe my family`ll b there for me without fails whn i`m down, whn i`m hurt, whn i`m sick and whn if I HAF NO FRIENDS. But right now, I`m contented tt i haf a happy family and i`ve many frendx who cared and loved me and who really treasured me in such a way tt we`re like a happy family. =)))
Haf ya guys experienced before; sumtymes whn we treated sumone alittle closer den e other person, e person who saw tt`ll nt feel happy. Jealousy is wat i meant. For example, whn two different groups of frendx who asked ya to mit up on e same day and we could only choose one group. Which group of frendx who ya choose den? Both groups`re ya close frendx, both groups`re e ones whom u haf nt met up w em for ages, both groups out of so many frendx ya haf known`ll b there for you whn u`re down. Tat`s whn u haf a headache. In a no way out situation, you could oni choose one group and apologised to another group. Or to be fair; u choose not to meet up w both parties. But is tat a good solution? Like e same goes to; both guys woo you at e same time, and both of ya`re your cup of tea. If u choose one, you would hurt e other one. If u choose two, u`re such a disgrace to yourself. If u choose none, you`ll nt forgive yaself? Or perhaps I dun tink wat u guys tink at e same time too.
Sumtymes in life, we should really choose wat`s best for our ownself. =)) So wat if i could get into poly and study? however, they gave miee courses which i`m really nt interested in. I tried not to care abt wat others sae. I choose nt to get an un-interested dip course cert. yupx, i noe. Whn frendx do tel miee, doesn`t mean tt you go poly study and get into e course u dun like bt u got a dip cert, you stil haf to pursue your career w tt cert. But but... i seriously duno how to explain to those frendx how i feel. Though i cum out w all sorts of reasons to xplain to em. yet, i get back these three words. 'you`re silly!' Sumtymes i really agress wat they sae. In sum situations, i dun wanna care hw others feel for miee. I choose wat`s best for miee. I nv deny tt i haf planned hw my future gonna b like. Bein a boss oso met up w lots of obstacles. They fall and fall, many many many times till they succeed. So i believed no matter how silly i`m, how foolish and how stupid m i, i`ll succeed juz like one of em too. Time`s e source tt i probably need. But i`m 18 nw, gettin old soon. sighh. Perhaps my route would b longer den any success pple out there. haha One day, i saw tis. 'Pple who wants to succeed oso takes time to be a successful person' Am i tryin to console myself? LOLS. wateva it`s, let nature takes it course. haha.
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