MyDirtyLittleDarkSecrets And My JuicyLavishAndFlourishingLife

Friday, March 31

Happy 19th birthdaee ningzhen!

happy sweeetttt birthdaeee.:)) been cousins for 18 years le. time flies. misses childhood memories. those daes ya dying and cryin to cum over my hse to stay every weekends. those shoppin sphere, sharin our doubts, hw i voice my doubts out, hw you consoled mi in one way or another, hw ya bcame retarded makin everyone happy w ya crazy acts, hw high you`re whn ya started tokin abt those MACHO guys. LOLS. and mani mani other stuffs we do together. i wanna tel you. I TREASURE YOU. I ADORE YOU. :)) dun 4get, no matter wat obstacles ya encountered, i`ll b THERE FORYOU! promise promise. rmb to stay strong and work hard for year two in poly. Find your someone special soon! haha. let mi b your bride groom~ Even though i noes tt long ago; you`re mani times prettier den miee. and i hates. i hates. bt I stil love you more den i love my eyes! Haf fun todae and every other daes. :))

And yes; aren`t I e bestest bestest BESTEST cousin in your eyes? muacks. :)):))

saw ann on coincidence todae. misses. bt din catch up w her for i`m rushin off to mit a frendx.

thx uncle 4 e free ride todae. LOLS. <3
MISSYOU like crazy :D:D

10:20 PM
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Sunday, March 26

Great dae. :D:D

Out w kelvin in e early afternoon. my company`s colleague. okie. went few places todae. i like.

Macho him. he wore shirt. so suave. haha. worst`s tt, he nv stopped goin into e toilet to style his hair. guys are guys. annoyed. :)) LOL.

Went Suntec City 1st. he insisted. LOL. there`s an exhibition. Got sum free gifts. those newletters and leaflets. threw those stuffs into e dustbin bfore hopin on to e nx station. we insisted. LOL.

Went bugis. ate fast food. forced him to finish up e remainin nuggets n fries. mad luff. n his stomach bcame so full. he din even finished up e burger tt he ordered. such a waste. bt it`s okie. chatted madly. saw his frendx on coincidence. passed by a temple. walked in. n yes, prayed.

Then went to town. By the time, it was in e late evenin. went taka 1st. shopped. shared our stories; our lifes since young and vice versa. surprisingly, we nv really shared those stuffs at work. busy w our workload n yes, we`re frm e different. departments as well. we do click off quite well todae. shared lotsa stuffs and givin great advices and comments to each other. thx 4 his care n concern. i like. :)) :))

toot him. lost his way at town. like i walked to e east n he walked to e west. called him. annoyed. he din pick up. rejected n yes, sms-ed him. he called. okie. while waitin 4 him, went to look 4 my cousin. assume she`s workin todae. misses. went into her shop. saw no one. den one of her colleagues came out. glad glad. she`s workin todae. chatted alittle while n yes, off i go to mit him again. <3

madness and laughters. he started it off. luffed at my sillyness. it`s okie. took e same mrt n bus home. intended to go JB together as well. he insisted. LOL. haha. loved e presence of these frendx. k-boxin sessions soon as well. thier treats. =P my beloved jigeeee,xiongge,ahpoh ge, baoxuan jie,lili jie, xiao mei, xiao di, chiewee, zhangying etc etc. muacks.

busy again tml. sighh :((

11:59 PM
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Saturday, March 25

:(( Tings aren`t goin smoothly for miee. nw i realised why pple saes;"good tings oways cums wif bad tings." sumtymes tis sentence sounds so true, so true. nt superstitious i presume?

Mani unhappiness happened throughout e past week. Miscommunication results in little conflicts. or should i phrased it in another way, lack of communication results in misunderstandin between both parties. i`m so glad tt those issues were resolved after a long chat w yq. perhaps it`s time we should sit down n tok abt it. As for alex case, after a long serious consideration n e three consecutive meeting sessions w him, i`m pleased to sae tt everyting`s over nw. Decisions`ve already made. No point turnin back. thx 4 thier understandin. :))

Far too tired 4 words. sumtymes i wondered how i cope w stress? The minute i wanna gave up, bt sumting`ll juz tel miee nt to. Perhaps i oways stress to put in my very best in wateva i do. And yes, thx ce and zy 4 thier gifts. I like. so touched. :)) Frankly speakin, i appreciate tt. Juz love em to bit to bits. hugs n kisses 4 u guys. muacks :))

Like Jige, kelvin, xiongge and ahpoh so much too. They oways made my dae. thier sillyness. LOL. retarded. I like. haha. especially Jigeee. :)):)) My xiaodi n xiaomei as well. tt`s wat we called each other. haha

Saw chiman on coincidence one dae too. so surprised. gettin macho and his hair? style! :))

oh ya. more activities nx week. meetings/communications sessions. Gonna mit up w my sec. sch peeps too i guess n oso late nites movies n k box nx week. i hope. tis wkends`s packed too. 4 i`m mitin up w frendx n yes yes, gonna demand treats frm all of em as i`m broke. :D:D

PS: i apologised 4 nt attendin sum of e activities tt peeps asked mi to attend as i`m crashed w other activities on e same dae as well. :))

Misses those daes. Late night suppers w em. E good, old, happy n sad times. hw we lend each other a helpin hand whneva we`re in doubts. n yes, adores em to bits :):)

1:22 PM
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Saturday, March 11

Long Entry
yes,yes. it`s gonna b a long entry up. Mani tings happened recently. Be it frendx and work.
Seriously, i haf no idea how to start off with.

Basically,i`m stil busy w work n etc. and yes,makin decisions and plannin. So hard 4 miee to decide e right route, my future and everyting. Mani a times,after i made a decision, i was tinkin whether tis`ll work and vice versa. whether it benefits mi in one way or another. whether it helps mi to b a better person though. so inorder 4 mi to do tt, i could oni (1) TRY, (2) ABSORB as mani stuffs as i can, (3) PRACTISE and so (4) SOLUTION.

Workin`s exhaustin. Gainin experience`s FANTASTICALLY GREAT! Makin great colleagues at work made my dae too. Discussin sum stuffs w alex. My 1st tear rolled down my cheeks ytd infront of him. I do nt noe y i can`t control my emotion. Since young, i admit tt i`m emotional and sensitive at times. Grateful tt he discussed those stuffs w miee. at least i noe e truth, i do nt haf to hide.

Failure
i`m such a failure. I failed to complete my tasks. i failed to b e best daughter in my parents`s eyes. I failed to do well 4 my Os and go 4 e courses tt i like. sigh. i really failed.

Wat has e world bcumin to? Murder case`s increasin. Cruel and frightenin. oh my goodness. Sum humans`re evil creature. i apologised to sae tt. In my own opinions, i guess humans haf to tink wise bfore they act.

Went to buy sum stuffs after work last week. wanna withdraw money at e same time. Was chased by a cat. simply so. it`s e 2nd time. bt tis`s worst. those screamin and yellin late at night. i walked one step, e cat followed one step. i run, it run. and i was wonderin; i din disturb e cat and i haf no idea why it chased mi. LOL. ridiculous. and ya. thx tt i escaped frm tis frightenin experience. A guy helped to chase e cat awy. there`s great pple ard isn`t it?

met up w my cousin last weekends too. she oways made my dae. retards. doin silly stuffs 2gether, sharin of conversation, givin great comments and etc. hw i missed those times whn we were young. Makin our own stalls and sellin our products. LOLs. playin those retarded and childish games. oways rmb tt whneva i got bullied, she overcum my fear and protected miee. seems like my elder sis. jie jie. touched. muacks.

BBQ-in gatherin w my ex. colleagues ytd. Thanks waikien and grace 4 makin tis bbq a successful and fantastic one. thx 4 thier efforts and etc. wakin up early juz to prepare those stuffs. thx Jinghao 4 cumin down after mani times of persuasion. thx huizhen and faizal respectively. though they couldn`t make it in e 1st place yet they stil make it a point to cum down. thx ann 4 e cake and e juice. never expect she`ll cum down too. simply touched. so touched. =))

Get to gather up w other frendx as well. Friends like eileen, peile, mark, huimin, chunlong, ariel, kelvin and vice versa. Makin other great frendx as well; Sam and a new kelvin. A pity tt ferlyn, michelle, iskanda etc etc couldn`t make it. sharin lots of stuffs. conversations, jokes and laughters. LOL.

Sharin of horrow stories at e top of forests? LOL. scare mi off w Sam lame shiet of act. LOL. yelled and screamed loudly. and it`s midnite tt time. nice weather ytd. coolin. great atmosphere. haha. those huggies and kisses. photo takin and etc. though sum of em missed out as they went back early ytd.

chatted and i`m so glad tt i could click off w em even though we gathered up once in awhile. miles apart bt our heart`ll oways united as one. LOL. wat a definition. tears rolled down ytd. LOL. i guess it`s e charcoal and e fire. n e humorous part`s tt, they consoled mi in one way or another. LOL. well, i enjoyed myself thoroughly. Reached home in e midnite. took e same cab w grace and kelvin. thx kelvin 4 his treats. Love u guys to bits to bits. more of these gatherin please? :)) :))

i wanna mit up w my sec. sch n pri.sch peeps soon. and ya. bt i`m so super duper busy. frendx; let`s gathered up and tok abt tis issue. LOL. misses my darlin gers. lynnie, vonne and wendie. my classmates in sch and vice versa. :))

1:38 PM
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