my little world

2009-04-07T04:35:00.000-07:00

Another friend whom i`ve not seen for 10 years tooo.

Found him today.

Yes, FINALLLLLY MAN!! :)

Best Reunion ever!:)

2009-04-05T02:58:00.000-07:00

Finallly found him after 10 yrs.
He went missing in action and no one knew about his whereabout.

Have been talking abt him wheneva there's a gathering.

Finallly. finalllly.
Looking forward.... to seeyou.
Meantime, takecare while in Taiwan.:)

2009-03-30T02:52:00.000-07:00

27 March 2009

This date marks e biggest n important test in my life.

It was a painful experience.

Since young, i have never loves to see

e sight of needles poking my body.

I mean who likes it right.

Sweetest parent n sis are always there for me. Dad took leave on this day too. Reach kk hospital at 0924am. Waiting n waiting n waiting nervously before it's my turn.

Clock strikes 0937am. Do e necessary administrative stuffs n after that, was told to change into their 'uniform'. I tried to keep myself calm n to prevent my tears frm flowing.

Waited for at least 2 hours n my mum accompanied me n stayed beside me while waiting for my turn to go in.

Clock strikes 1208 noon.

After my mum was told that she could go have a break first, my mum looked at me n asked me to flash a smile for her.

Before i could do so, i couldnt control

and my tears flow down endlessly.:(

Anaesthesia was given to me n other injection was given to me too. Very painful!!!

I swear e injection n medicine were so strong. Doctor tried to say sumting to me but at tt point of time, slightly I could feeel myself numb for 1 to 2 secs. Before i realised, i was already put to sleep.

Three hours plus later, i opened my eye. half open infact.

Loooked at e clock n one of e nurse replied: "your surgery's done." but tt time was feeeling reallly exhausted to look at her n reply her as e anaesthesia's not over yet.

Within seconds, they pulled me out of e operating theatre room n was warded. Suddenly, i vomited crazily. Blood pressure was low. Got another injection to stop me frm vomiting. Thereafter, i was tearing in pain. The pain was incontrollable.

My mum came into e ward n saw me tearing. She holded my hand tight. Teardrop rolled down her cheek too. Given painkillers n i tried to close my eyes n rest.

I will like to thanks all my dear friends who knows about me going for surgery on this date. Thanks for the care n concern. Thanks for the beautiful sms n phonecall from u guys before n after i went in. Thankyou for making an effort to come down to visit me. talk to me. Thanks for showering me with all e loves.

hugs hugs hugs. :)

2009-03-22T09:22:00.000-07:00

When i`m stilll feeeling super duper low........

I`m so glad that she stood by me.

The care. The concern. The hugs. The loves from you.

My dear girl. No words can xpress how much u meant to me.

Do you knw that despite seeing ya face 2 days ago, i`m still missing you as much now.

2009-03-14T05:17:00.000-07:00

My Girls at Timbre.

The meet-up was great.

Band and music are fantasticallly awesome too.

At times when u're reallly down and lonely,
nothing beats better than having them by your side.
11 years and still counting.
I love you girls soo much.
Let's have another date sooon ok. :)

Home sweet home late midnite.
Sign into msn n chatted with another awesome friend for 3 hours.
That's crazy.
We shared alot of dirty little dark secrets
and i think our mind think alike.
No wonder we're taurus. :)
But poor him fell down during camp
and was on hospitalisation leave.
Have a speedy recovery boy.
Late night supper with you sooon.
............ Missing you.

2009-03-10T23:51:00.000-07:00

In the midst of clearing my stuff,

i've headed a pile of things that are categorised

as 'don't know whether to throw or give away or not'

Things that've been accumulated for many years;

as far back when i reached teenages years.

1. Who gave it to you?

2. Who was that person to you?

3. Who is the person to you?

Then someone said;

" No matter how significant it was, it's already in the past."

We always find ourselves holding onto things.

Sometimes, we hold onto things for so long,

we forget what we were holding onto.

"It's only when we let go of them,

then can we see what we were holding onto!"

2009-03-09T23:56:00.000-07:00

12am

As i listened to the song we once listened together,

I couldn`t control but breakdown again.

Verge of suffocating myself,

As tears juz flowed.

Covered myself tightly,

And teared silently.

1am

At that moment......

I was hoping you could be there for me.

Taking care of me like how you did before.

And be my source of strength and hope.

As i was shivering under my blanket,

I was hoping you could be there for me.

Just like the way you've hug me to sleep,

Giving me all the love and warmth i need.

I hope I pray I wish...

PS: You told me that you hope i could be there

to enjoy the happiness with you.

But.. i reallly do not want to see myself

tear suddenly the moment i'm there.

I wish you could understand how i feeel.

I am sorry......

2009-03-09T01:48:00.000-07:00

I know I need to be strong,

To forget and to put down things.

But i`m still so so confused.

I don`t know who i can talk to.

To whom i can really reveal my real emotions.

Who can i really confine in?!

2009-03-02T00:01:00.000-08:00

I broke into bitter tears again.

I know i know i know i`m such a crybaby.

Silly silly me.

I juz cant control e emotions in me.

A friend called at work and we chatted....

While chatting, i teared.

I believed this friend called n tried to make me feeel less-down but ironically. i wasnt feeeling this way.

Life've been really super down.

I've tried to look onto e bright side of life.

trying to move on n think less.

................... but... but .. but.. but... but......................

Message for someone:

Actuallly i`ve many things to ask you.

Lots of questions've been flashing into

my mind waiting for you to answer.

I dreamt and think of you too.

All e happy n sweet memories with you.

You know how much i misses your smile.

That one n only smile i`ve been dying to see wheneva i seeyou.

You know how much i want to text you

everyday, every night tellling you that i loveyou?

Asking how do you feel today?

What've u eaten for breakfast, lunch n dinner?

Where've u gone to today?

How's work n studies today?

Any unhappiness incident happened?

If there's, i really wish to be there to gv u a warm hug.

I've so much so much things to ask you

and chatted with you face to face.

But wheneva i took my phone. I changed my mind again.

Then i will start to look at every single texts u sent me.

I can`t bear to delete it too.

That day after you broke e new to me,

I`ve been running awy from e reality.

I don`t know if u`ve sensed that...

Now i`m going to tell you....

U're still someone special in my heart i really realllly

DOTES, LOVES n TREASURES e most.

I really hope u'll just pop by to see what i wrote here.

Although i knw it's really impossible to turn back time now.

At least you get to see n know how i feel in my real heart.

I miss you.....................

2009-02-22T01:34:00.000-08:00

Because love is a 2 way road.

I`m tired of running this 1 way road myself.

I can`t see the light out of this endless race.

And finally when i take the time to rest and to look down.

It's all bruises all over.

That was when i realised......

that i have neglected myself all these while.

................ I feeel so tired now.

I can`t find that energy to finish the race anymore.

2009-02-20T23:58:00.000-08:00

Weird to say, there's too much on my mind now.

An overwhelming influx of information that it

sort of engulfed my senses with it.

Although there isn`t much personal time

left given the schedule now,

yet every minute and every second,

that omnipresent one seems to be on my mind.

I've been feeeling helpless and lost with my own emotions.

................... that i don`t know what to do with them anymore.

Things seems so simple yet so difficult to settle.

I`m so confused with the whole string

of thoughts running in my mind.

................ that i`m unwillingly to think anymore.

You're still the air i breathe.

Feelings still exist strongly.

I know promises're not forever.

But somehow i wish to believe in the subtle illusion it's.

I wish to believe in you

Wish to believe all's true.

But harsh reality always dashes one dreams.

When you break the new in a beautiful weekday,

I was totally lost of words to say to you.

Thoughts of it happening just hurts me like crazy.

When you ask me whether if it's you.

I answer it's not.

Actually it's not true.

I dare not be true to you.

You meant so much to me.

Deep inside, i really think of you like crazy.

I really love you.

2009-02-19T23:45:00.000-08:00

The date is confirmed.

I have got no choice now.

I need to go for it.

I am super scared and worried.

I am afraid to see the sight of needles poking my body.

I hate to see myself lying in bed feeling weak.

I hate to see myself tearing every night before i goes to bed

and every morning i wake up.

I have no idea what i can do anymore.

Pray pray pray.

Will i be put to sleep and aftermath, i can't wake up?

Will you miss me if suddenly i`m gone forever?

........... I do. I really do.

2009-02-19T03:18:00.000-08:00

Things that often look sweet on the surface..

........ are normally the most bitter in within.

2009-02-18T01:11:00.000-08:00

I`m so lost in this confusion.

Right or Wrong.

One mistake can crush everyting you have.

I don`t want to make the wrong move.

I really think of you. think of your presence.

Maybe you're long gone away from me?

Are you? Are you?

How i wish Edwin`s here with me right now.

..................... Only he can understand the agony

i`m going through now.

2009-02-17T00:15:00.000-08:00

Random?!

I love LiLi.

Despite seeing her last week, i miss seeing her face yet and again. :(

Recent pics

Retarded. hehe

2009-02-16T01:21:00.000-08:00

This's what i feeel now:

Girls're emotional. Guys're not.
Girls think in many different ways. Most guys think in one way. (I meant straight when interpreting situations.)
Girls tend to be sensitive to many small little tiny issues. Guys tend to overlook "less" important issues.
Girls cry over every single issue that breaks their heart. Guys never cry even when the world falls apart.
Girls expect to be placed as first priority. Guys will only place work as their first priority.
Girls expect to be pampered every single second. Guys only pampers when absolutely necessary. (like on the brink of breakup)
Girls can spend millions and zillions of dollars on cosmetics, make up etc. Guys can only spend on electronics, cars and games.
Girls feel the need to be reassured at times. Guys think one reassurance is enough to last a lifetime.

No wonder when it boils down to resolving conflicts and diffferences. Girls and guys can never meet eye to eye.

"Guys come from mars. Girls come from venus."

...................... Highly agreed.

2009-02-15T01:52:00.000-08:00

very amazed by 'someone' who can reads my mind like a book.

someone who loves to nags and nags and nags at me

but whenever this person nags, i can feel the heart!

everytime i`m down, this 'someone' will go,

'sayang' 'sayang'

hehe

Guess who is the 'someone' i`m referring to?!

loveyouuuuuuuu

*hugs*

2009-02-14T01:40:00.000-08:00

Love is missing someone whenever you are apart;

but somehow feeeling warm inside

because you are close in heart.

2009-02-13T02:42:00.000-08:00

Life has been reallly busy.

Kinda lazy to update my blog too.

hehe.

This Sem`s ending in two weeks time.

Then, i will have my six weeks break.

And i`m going to avoid stepping into clementi station

if there's don`t need to til April.

Life has not been going on well for me when year 2009 starts.

Everyting is not smooth be it work, studies and oso health!

Many shockingly news coming in one at a time.

Well, this year lunar new year's considered not bad.

Going over to different friend's n relative hse to bai nian.

At the same time, friends coming over to my hse to bai nian too.

Late nights and chattings always spells 'love'.

Had awesome dinner at royal park hotel during lunar new year too.

Won lucky draw.

So happy. hee

Yesterday, right after work, headed down to meet

up with two groups of friends.

Met LL and BX at IMM for dinner.

Had our meal at baystreet 21.

Nice and cosy place.

After our meal, LL announced two goood news to us.

First new, she`s getting married on the month of May.

Second new, i shall keep it confidential.

She will held her wedding dinner at Malaysia

(forgot which part of Malaysia she told us.)

Will wait for her wedding card to send to us.

Anyway, we`ll likely book air ticket and hotel to attend her big day.

Can`t wait!!! oh my god.

Her ROM date's fixed too. 21st March, Sat. :)

Then at 9 plus, rushed down to westmall starbucks

to meet up with Dyme and SE.

Intention, to celebrate dyme belated bdae and passed her bdae gift.

Have a goood session with the girls n i hope this`ll go on till e day we're married n give birth to our kids.

hahaha.

Think too much.

But we seriously talk about our marriage n vice versa that night.

hehe

Home sweet home 12 midnight.

Anyway, happy advance Valentine day to all my dear friends.

(Be it single or attached)

*hugs*

2009-01-15T01:45:00.000-08:00

Have you felt like you miss someone soo much?

When a single text lightens up your day?

Knowing that person has asked about you,

Makes your heart flutter.

When that person knows how you feeel, just by reading your text.

When tears wells up in your eyes.

When memories flood your mind.

Maybe you may call this madness

But i call it L.O.V.E.

2009-01-14T00:37:00.000-08:00

Come to think of it..

It's Year 2009 now.

Time flies.

Hadn`t been updating as i`m soo busy with my life.

Not feeeeling very happpy though.

Full of downs.

Low morale.

1 week down. 7 weeks to go.

2008-12-06T15:52:00.000-08:00

I have like hundreds over pictures

to upload but i`m sooo lazyyy.

I am having three weeeks of break starting

from now but i`m not happpy.

Why?

Because i`m really worried that i`ll flunk the papers badly.

I know it`s too late to regret and turn back time.

I know i should take alittle more seriously

to study for it but i`m reallly exhausted.

My mind cannot concentrate at all.

Even though i apply leave to study and

e moment i open my boooks, i only think of sleeep.

So desperate right.

but i`m realllly really tired.

Perhaps ED is right: 'you're always silly HuiYan'.

He always says that to me.

But he has been reallly supportive.

Always remind me a zillion times

to follow my heart tells me to.

I loveyou dear.

Ok so like i apply leave on Thurs and

Fri to study, actuallly Wed too.

but i realised i`ve so much work to

do so i decided to cancel a day.

On top of that, there`s a few sad news happening

at work and such news were so sudden for me to take it.

welll, let's drop e subject!

I think i`ll upload e photos in my next entry. hopefully

ps: I really miss bkk soo much. I need a break!

2008-12-05T00:52:00.000-08:00

I have something to tel you, boy. that 's.. ..

Counting down!!!

3 more days.:)

2008-11-30T05:03:00.000-08:00

I had the best dinner and dance in my entire life.

Most of us were all nicely dressed-up

according to e theme 'masquerade'.

Jean was restricted that night.

Thanks to the seven of us who makes the event possible.

The day started off when the make-up artist(Meilin)

came over to my house to do hairdo and makeup.

Then took a cab down at four plus to fairmont hotel.

Reached at around five to do all the set up and ensure

everyting is in order like e PA and sound system.

People started reaching at around six-thirty.

So was busy marking e staffs attendance etc and at

around seven-thirty, e programs started.

Emcees welcome the VIP(s) and CEO

presented his speech there after.

After e speech, it was dine time.

Everyone had buffets that night.

Then we started our first game.

The game called 'banana'.

We chose four guys and four girls whom we

considered 'dressed-down' up to e stage to play.

It was soo funny and all e guys were so pervertic.

hahaha

After e first game, we had first round of lucky draw,

talent search like romeo and juilet,

best dresses award and vice versa.

Everyone put on thier best masks that night.

The day ended off with grand lucky draw

and a thank you speech for all staffs.

Some stayed to drink thier last round of alcohol while

some of us headed up to e hotel room to change etc.

Stayed in the hotel and had some midnight chats

with some of my colleagues till three plus midnite

and took a cab back home with another two

colleagues while e rest stayed in e hotel til e next day.

Here`s a pic. Shall upload e rest of e pics sooon.

2008-11-25T03:54:00.000-08:00

I guess i have e most happening life ever..

So happening to the extent i`ve beeeen

smiling and crying almost every single day.

Crying when i`m down.

Smiling when i`m happppy.

Life`s always great having friends around.

Especialllly when they bothered to care n concern.

I wasn`t feeeeling well last weeek n e sweetest someone

has been sending me home every lesson.

He's e best ever!

Pretty touched by his every little actions despite

he was sick as well n reallly makes me aware

that there's good guy still exists in this world.

At e same time, my classmates has beeen

taking care of me when i`m reallly sick.

When i`m feeeling cold, they bought me milo and herbal tea.

I reallly appreciate it!

Thanks alll for e concern.

What's more can i say?!

I really love you guys.

Celebrated Maybeline's birthday last Saturday.

Happpppy Birthday girl!

I wish you happiness and goood health.

Keeep that smile of yours going please.

Loveyou. :)

I`m reallllly loooking forward to Saturday!

It`s going to be a grand night.

Counting down.

Five days to go.

hehe

2008-11-12T00:27:00.000-08:00

I`m fallling sick sooon.

Been coughing n sneezing away badly.

Super uncomfortable.

It really tires you out; when you bottle things up.

When all the burdens weigh heavily on you.

When you've so much, so much to say,

But the chance aren`t there anymore.

When you want things to happen,

But you worry so so much to let things happen.

And the worst thing is, what you worry, doesn`t concern you at alll.

It's all about another party.

People ask, why do you have to place thier interests above yours.

And you tell them cause, 'I love them!'

People will say, mayb it isn`t a worry at all,

You're just thinking too deeep into things.

But you just can`t get an answer.

What's right and whats wrong?

LOVE has no right and wrong.

All that matters is being happpy.

How do we know that we have found happiness?

When being with them warmth you greatly?

When having thier presence makes you smile like never before?

When memories of being together never fades?

When you miss them every single day?

Deeep inside, you know i missyou dear.

I reallly do.:)

2008-11-10T01:28:00.000-08:00

i can never express how i feeel towards you.

thanks for making today a happy one.

makes me aware that you still care.:)

although you`re alittle cheeeky today.

hehe

i love you.:)

2008-11-09T02:26:00.000-08:00

Very tired. Very tired.

How i wish i could sleep for 48 hours.

Someone please motivate me with happpy pills please.

Actuallly, wanted to blog about what`re the

recent happenings happened at work.

Mmmm. Interesting.

However, after thinking thrice, i think i better not blog about it.

I`m still doubtful but i know, it can never be perfect.

My heart should not be too kind-hearted anymore.

Neeed time to coool down before i can forgive completely.

Anyway, i am prettty loooking forward to my

company dinner & dance on 29 November.

No idea why.

But i can feel that it is going to be prettty

fun n interesting compared to last year.

Has done some preparation.:)

Hope my effort don`t go down the drain on that day.

Masquerade here i come.

haha.

2008-11-03T01:34:00.000-08:00

I want to blog about this!!!!

After receiving the feedback, i know i shouldn`t take it too

hard neither should i feeel too sad about it.

I`m going to prove to you that i could do something

out and improvised on this.

I want to show you that i could do a goood job.

Not through words but through actions.

Yes, I reallly meant it!

2008-10-27T23:52:00.000-07:00

He said:

"I know i won't have a chance to get to see you cry infront of me.

Because before the moment i knew your tears going to fall,

i`ve already make you smile."

:))))))))

Muackkssssssss

2008-10-27T15:52:00.000-07:00

There is 7 days in a weeek.

But i only heart 2 days per week.

Before i knew it, it's back to busy and saddening weekday once again.

Life's so unpredictable.

Attended two funerals wake.

One at Hougang, the other one at Yishun.

It`s reallly heartbreaking to see a friend teared infront of you.

I know such's unavoidable.

I just want you to be happpy. :)

Weekends're love with lovely girlfriend.

Town on Saturday night and Bugis on Sunday.

After bugis, headed down to JP to`ve a short meet-up with Maggie.

Luckily she gets to break early.

After that, went down to my grandfather house.

They were deciding on where to`ve dinner.

So come to a decision to`ve dinner at JP.

I should`ve met them there. haha

Had dinner, shopped and returned to my grandfather hse again.

Cousin n aunts played mahjong while e rest watched star awards.

Reached home. Showered.

Received a msg frm a friend at 1 plus am.

Asked if i want to meet up with him as he`s feeeling soo down.

Soo.. he reached my place at around 2am.

Glad that he feeels better after throwing everyting out.

At least the boy i used to know's back.:)

I don't think i`ve the time to update tml.

soooo........

Happpppy birthday girl!

It was nice catching up with you 2 weeks back.

I hope you will excel in your photography and stay lovely dovey with ya boyfriend as always ya.:)

2008-10-27T01:00:00.000-07:00

we can close our eyes to things we don`t want to see,

but we cannot close our heart to things we don`t want to feeel.

2008-10-26T23:37:00.000-07:00

all i want is just to be happpy.

i reallly reallly want to be happpy.

2008-10-26T03:15:00.000-07:00

wheneva i say 'quit' infront of you.

you`ll try all ways to make me smile.

never regretted knowing someone like you.

sometimes words reallly can`t describe how much you meant to me.

how important you meant in my eyes.

especiallly the sweetest words that came out from that sweetest mouth of yours;

really brightens up my day.

at least i know even if i`m at the lowest peak of my life,

there`s something (You) to perk me up.

life aren`t that bad afterall.

coz i know u`ll always be there.

thank my dear for always making me smile from within.

i-love-i-love-you too.

i promise. :)

2008-10-19T08:41:00.000-07:00

Here's something for someone special:

I was chatting with a friend and the conversation goes something like this.

Her: Hello XMG (oooops, it`s e nickname she gives me ever since... LOL. shall not reveal it.) how are u?

Her: You seem down.

HuiYan: Hello lovely. hmmm. full of ups n downs.

HuiYan: How about u?!

Before i reply her, she sent me a sweeet kisssssss.

She's reallly awesome and one understanding friend ever since i know her from day one.

Someone who knows me inside out without me sharing my downs with her.

Coz she can always sense that i`m feeeling low without me sharing it with her first.

She's reallllllllly someone i deeeeply treasures in e past, now and in e future.

Guess who`s she?!

She`s none other than Chin Pei Fang. :)

No wonder we`re both born on May, same horoscope,

only difference is birthday date juz one day before and after each other!

(ooppps i tink i used to blog about this.)

I reallly loveyou so much la.

okok. I tink i shall stop saying how awesome you`re if not it`s going to be a long list here.

hehe

Three simple words short and sweet just for you........

'You-Are-Special!'

Awaiting for our KL trip together soon.:)

2008-10-19T07:08:00.000-07:00

Have u guys ever experienced being at your lowest peak of your life before?!

Have u guys ever teared so badly that u wished someone`ll be by your side being your happpy pills?!

Have u guys ever feeeel so lost and wants to give up something that you once adoresss and reallly put in 101% effort, lovess and time on it?!

I feeeel so weak so weak.

On e other hand, i reallly`ll like to thanks the following friends; sweeethearts i named it who`ve beeen there for me ever since.:)))

1. Maybeline

2. Mingyu

3. Leaan

4. Christine

5. Kevin

6. Edwin

7. Irene

I hope this will fade away as soon as possible.

2008-10-15T01:40:00.000-07:00

I wish that i know my sense of direction.

Like where am i heading to or am i crossing the right path.

All of e sudden, i feel so lost!

I really wish that i`ve a guardian angel beside me currently..

and at e same time, sending me sweet little hugs and kisses.

I have got a realllly sweet girlfriend.

I reallly meant it.

She's reallly sweet.:)

She's one of e awesome friends i`ve ever known for eight years.

(yes, and stilll going on)..

Though i requested 'one smile' from her,

instead she gave me 'three'.

Nothing more to ask for.

You're e best girl!

You make my day! :)

I just wish that you could be by my side now silly so that i

could lie on your shoulder and cry my hearts out!

2008-10-12T02:24:00.000-07:00

shrugs.

what`ve i been doing during these 6 weeks of breaks?!

I`m so-not-looking forward to tml.

not loooking forward to tml.

not looking forward to tml!

:((((((((

Anyway, can`t believed i bought this.
hehe

Though not as crazy over them as compared to when i`m young.
Afterall, they`re still my favourite-top-band taiwanese singer.
:)

This week has been a fulfiling week.
At the same time, i manage to find alittle time to meet up
with the birthday boy and the birthday girl
whose birthday fallls tml, 13 Oct.
Birthday boy!

Birthday girl! (the 4th girl).

More than a decade friendship and it's still growing strong!

lovessssss.

shall update e rest of the events and photos in e next entry.

I have no mood to update anymore further.

2008-10-10T02:18:00.000-07:00

Every small little things you do, matters.

Just a simple hug or sentence, helps.

Showing appreciation to others, benefits both.

It`s the quality and not the quantity that matters.

2008-10-07T08:35:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Yikqi! (6 Oct)

I am like so used to having YOU by my side,

being my best listening ear.

You know what, yesterday while on the way home,

u texted me and my tears rolled down again immediately.

I know if u reads this, you'll go; "silly,you're such a crybaby!"

I reallly cannot control my emotional feelings.

I guess when you`re not around, i really miss you so soo much.

On e other hand, the more i see you,

the more i miss you even more.

"L.O.V.E" these four simple letter words...

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When i`m having fun,

My life seems perfect.

When i`m alone,

My life seems vulnerable.

No matter how much love, care and concern our friends give,

Ultimately, you`ll still need someone you love by your side.

At times, I reallly hate myself.

My life seems fine n happy on the cover.

Everyone praise me for being so strong.

But beneath the cover lies a pool of blood,

And a frequent suicidal mind.

2008-10-05T08:14:00.000-07:00

Last nite I headed to bed but i couldn't sleep.

After that, i found myself crying.

Thought this's not the first time and i wish it doesn't

happen again because it feeels reallly shittty.

Have been having pretty bad nightmares almost everyday.

I am reallly really loooking forward to the month of December.

:))))))))

2008-10-03T01:57:00.000-07:00

Life is always full of loves and tears.

Life is always full of happiness and unhappiness.

Life is always full of friends and enemies.

Life is always full of why, what, when, how, where etc.

If only. if only.

2008-10-01T00:01:00.000-07:00

oh shit..

Schoooling's back in one week time. The busy life`s back again sooon. Definitely not looking forward to it because projects, tutorials n exams killls big time.

Other than four friends whose birthdays had just ended last month, I`ve about six friends' birthdays coming up this month. Reallly crazy. One chalet coming up next weeek but it falls on weekday. Cannot ought not to attend because they attended mine. haha. But it`s all right. Loooking forward to it!

hehe

How i wish i could go bkk with e lovely peeeps next week. Sumting crops up on one of e days and in a no way out situation i decided not to go. Very saddening lor. Missess all the FOC (full of craps).:)

Nevertheless, wat has been happening?!

I met up with many lovely friends. (especially my beloved girls n sweetest jige, lovely mingyu etc). Not to forget, yes.. my all time favourite lovely girlfriends (maybeline, yvonne, yikqi) and e guys last friday. Then, headed down to several hotels with my colleague on Monday after work as i`m planning for my company DND. Still working on budgets n ideas to make e event successful. Have been eating reallly good foods recently. Restaurants and vice versa. Gained another kilo again. hais. I should control n this should put to a stop sooon laaa.

And what about work?! I think i will not blog it down here if not a thousand words essay also cannot complete e whole entry. But there's one word i want to say;"sigh!"

You got me deeper than deep and i`m constantly blind.

I'm running around but there's no place to hide.

Everyday you're just starting to become

more and more important to me and..

i just thought that you should know how much you mean to me too.

I am starting to fall deeper and deeper for you.

PS: I don`t understand why i MISSES you even more at night than in the day.

2008-09-19T07:23:00.000-07:00

About four mths plus ago, he attended my 20th birthday.

And now, four mths later, i`m attending his

21st birthday bash chalet!

Come to think of it, was really happy that he came

down as i tot that he`ll not be coming as he had

another bdae party to go to as well.

Though he was e last one to come down

to my party during midnight to wish me

but i was really touched and grinning from ear to ear.

Happy advance 21st Birthday, boy!

Big boy already. hehe

I hope you will do soo much better in e yrs ahead and thanks god u`ve recovered frm ya injury.:)

Really misses those days having fun n teasing each other.

Those were e days... ... hahaha

Looking forward to seeyou tml nite.

hehe

2008-09-10T23:59:00.000-07:00

I met up with Jess, Chris and Sky for

steamboat after work last Friday.

I realised i`m nothing compared to them.

All because they can eat!!!

At first, i thought that they ordered far too much.

In e end they can finish all up.

omg. hahaha.

Claps claps!

Full of envy as they did not waste any foods.

After that, headed down to e nearest

pub for some chilling sessions.

Ordered drinks n we chatted till late midnite.

On Sat, headed down to town to look for girlfriend after work.

I guess it`s because i`m not in a good mood due to some

unhappiness thus i did not smile as much that day.

Whateva it`s, at least i managed to pass her

e gift i bought for her frm bkk.

After that, headed down to my grandfather hse.

Had a light dinner with all the families.

It was raining heavily.

When e rain becomes smaller, i left my grandfather hse

to meet up with the lovely peeps for supper.

hehe.

Slept till late on Sunday.

Then a phonecall came.

My cute little boy called n asked if i

wanted to meet up with him n etc.

So went down to IMM first to loook for them

as they wanted to get some stuffs.

Headed down to TM after that.

Why?!

Coz i wanted to go IKEA to get a cupboard.

Sounds silly to go soo far to get one.

But I felt that it has more variety there laa.

And probably cheaper too?!

One cupboard really caught my eyes.

In e end quite sad that i did not manage to get it.

Coz it`s out of stock!!

On Monday, met up with my beloved girls n jige.

Finallly we met up.

Missses them soooo much!!!

They`re still as sweeet as ever.

Coz they bought me gift again!!

hugss.

As for yesterday, met up with sweeetie at IMM for dinner.
Had coffee club.

It was really nice catching up and sharing stuffs with you.

Thanks girl for always being there for me. :)

Loooking forward to tml.

Why?!

Coz i`m heading down to Pariss restaurant for dinner!!!

Sounds like a greedy pig.

hehehe.

You`re my sunshine. my only sunshine.

2008-09-04T01:39:00.000-07:00

I am back!!!

BKK trip was awesome..

Acting like a rich tai tai, taking cab wheneva we go, eating goood fooods, staying up n chatting till e next morning,

nights out shopping and spending money crazily.

super shiok.

hahaha.

Not to forget, going to miss the full-of-crap guy; FOC we named it.

Irritating guy but Cuteee!!!!

ooops. sorrry irene.

hehe

I`m going to plan another oversea trip again.

Probably on December.

hehe

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Ps: Thanks all for the concern. Didn`t know so many of you care and contact me to ask if i`m fine while i was there. Especially telling me stuff like;"I was soo worried about you!" Apologies to those who contacted me for many times n realised that i did not bring my phone to bkk. Thanks all for the awesome messages laa. You guyss damn cuteeee.. hahaa. Promised to mit ya guys for gathering soon n pass u guys e gifts i bought for all frm bkk.

loveya alll. :)

2008-08-24T04:01:00.000-07:00

Happpy Birthday Grace!!

(23rd Aug)

Finallly. e exam craze`s over. super happpy happpy!

It`s holidays now!!!!!!!!

Going to enjoy every second, every minute n everyday wisely before e next Sem commences on Oct.

hehe

3 more days of work n i`ll be away for a short break.

2008-08-20T00:15:00.000-07:00

I`ve been blogging frequently recently.

It was a rush of emotions.

A rush of adreline.

Time`s really crucial.

At least to me for this whole week.

Been having last minute revision and burning

midnight oil for these few days every night.

Although i took leave to revise my work but..

there's stilll so much revisions yet to be done.

Last minute revision really kills laa.

Anyway, it was a moment of joy and

a moment of tears for many Singaporeans out here.

It was indeed a very touching moment to see

the table tennis Olympians fight all out to clinch a medal.

No matter is silver or gold, i guess Li Jia Wei

has really done Singapore proud.

Coz after much anticipation, Singapore is finally getting an Olympic medal.

Just yesterday night, a friend called about 11pm

and we were casually chatting.

After tat, we didn`t realise that e conversation on the phone

with each other lasted so long and by e time i put down

e phonecall after wishing each other;

"Goodnite. Takecare",

it was already 2am.

It was a really great night sharing our current life with each other.

Happy and sad ones.

It`s really been ages.

I realised i`ve not seen this friend for nearly 3 months.

So i insisted to`ve a meet up next mth!

Anyway, i still hope that you`ll get well soon.

You still look very pale and sick.

Please heed my advise and consult a doctor again tml.

Thanks for sending me back home even if you`re soo sick today.

hugss. :)

I reallly reallly missess this sweetie pie very very much.

That busy girlll.

I want to`ve sakae sushi with you soon ok.

7 days to go.

Can hardly wait.

hehe

2008-08-19T00:57:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Ferlyn!!

Hopefully u`ll do so soo much better in e yrs ahead!

I miss you girll. Meet up soon okay.

Sometimes life is all about who`s planting a SMILE on you..

Thanks god we met..

Really can`t imagine you not being by my side and showered

me with lots of hugs and warmth;

With all your silly messages and phonecalls..

You know what, even if it's just a five mins conversation

with you a day makes my day..

Thanks for your patience and being such

a understanding person..

Takecare of yourself.:( You makes me soo worrried laa..

hugs.

I wish i could and i wish it was as easy as this.

2008-08-15T00:09:00.000-07:00

Apart from everyone's daily complaints.

We`re very "fortunate" as compared to the very less-fortunate.

I believed pple who aren`t as fortunate as us.

CRYING`ll be part of their daily routine.

If we were to compare with them.

Probably we`ve ended our life long ago.

Many of us will not be down-to-earth when we are not in that situation.

Often, we deceive ourselves just to get over with the things that are going through in our lives.

When you are muscular, you look down on those skinny people.

When you are slim, you detest obese people, laughing at them.

But when one day, if we are in this situation.

Will you be laughing at yourself too?

On and on in life, there`ll be opportunities for us.

To feel good and bad, happy or sad.

Even arrogant people will face difficulties one day too.

What i'm urging is that, we are all EQUAL.

If we don`t learn how to accept, we will never be happy in life.

Sometimes, it's not about being ideal in someone's eyes.

It's about how goood you feel about yourself.

Human do change.

The ugly duckling that you once loathe and mock at

Might one day be even better than you.

There are no ugly people around.

Only ill-hearted people with exterior but no substance.

Therefore, in conjunction to my friends who faces the same idiotic problem

I hope that you can all stand firm and strong.

In life, it does not mean that if you`re a nice person.

You will be free from blames, criticisms and backstabbing.

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Anyway, lovely-meet up with girlfriend today after work.

Not to forget, having an advance birthday celebration for both of them this Sat! Looking forward to the party and meeting up with the rest of the friends.

hehe

2008-08-09T21:27:00.000-07:00

i cried and i cried and i cried and i cried..

for now, i am not thinking of the big bang theory of einstein

nor the ozone layer depleting in seconds

or little children going to bed hungry..

but i`m thinking of you..

counting down counting down..

i really miss you..

2008-08-09T09:03:00.000-07:00

Dear Diary:

I just teared.

Life kinda sucks recently.

How i wish that i`m a girl

with no emotion, with no feeling and with no heart!

Yesterday late at nite, i went to meet up with a friend.

Reallly unxplainable feeeling.

How i wish.. i wish..

If u understand, the msn conversations with

you tt day says everyting.

I hope u could feel e same way i feeel too.

I really can't deny to u that your hug spoke more than wat u could

of great love n e feeeling so deeep n strong yet so unforgettable.

Silly friend. silly friend... ...

Actually i do`ve sumting to share with u

n i have question to ask u..

but but..:(

ok. drop this. i shall keep it to myself.

Anyway, I wish u bon voyage n takecare of yourself there.

Enjoy your trip to the max!

Lastly, three simple words short and sweet juz for u..

i miss you..

Anyway, sem two has finally came to an end on Thursday.

Felt kinda relieved alittle although exam`s

reaching in about 1 week time.

Crossed my finger n hopefully i could

scrap off with a pass especiallly

for e two modules i find it so difficult to

concentrate during lessons.

Sometimes i wondered why human being wants to

make an offence n not obeying e law strictly.

On Monday midnite, a serious offence happened in my company.

The security guard was caught for refilling diesel for e taxi driver.

So glad tt we`ve CCTV at work.

All thanks to my two china boys for thier alertness.

Police was called up.

At first, whn e police officer spoke to e guard,

he did not want to admit.

So one of my colleagues,

(who also headed down after being informed by e china boys)

called me at about 2plus midnite.

Luckily i was half asleep, half awake.

He asked me down to operate e CCTV to show to e officer.

At tt moment, before i agreed to go down, e guard admitted.

So i continued my beauty sleep.

(infact i really can`t sleep after putting down his phonecall)

And whn e clock strikes at 5am..

I quickly get changed n headed down to my company

to accompany my colleague

as well as to understand more abt e situation.

Not to forget, it happened 3 times. 3 days consecutively.

Such dishonesty guard!

Anyway, i`ll need to make a trip down to e police station

nx Tuesday to follow up on this case again.

This girl here tendered her resignation.

So we planned a farewell gathering for her.

Diana bdae celebration cum last day of work!

Guess who`s e mastermind of this surprise?!

It's ME ME ME! haha. :P

Ktv on a lovely Sat Night!

Playing games. Loser drink!

haha.

Looking forward to 22nd.

Looking forward to 28th.

2008-08-01T00:47:00.000-07:00

Life's so busy at the present moment.

I hardly've time to blog n sit down n think.

Well, next week is the final week of school for sem two.

Exam's reaching in about two weeks time.

After that, it's a long holiday break for me!!

Looking forward..

hehe

Past two weeks`ve been rushing my final project

for all my modules for this Sem.

At last, everything cleared.

Online modules done. Projects done. Presentation done.

So for now, i just need to concentrate on my core modules exam.

The date's drawing nearer n nearer laa.

Working's getting busier and tougher.

I know i should not grumble and complain.

I should cherish e opportunity that was given to me.

If in e first place, she did not grant me this opportunity to try,

i will not get promoted n my wish for working

as this title will not come true.

But why why do i feeel so tensed up and reallly want to give up.

I want a bright future for myself laa..

Ok, back to some happy stuffs.

Partying every weekend is LOVE especially..

partying with the right group of friends.

hehe

Dearest Cloudy Birthday Party!

Saboing time~ Birthday girl being thrown into the water!

poor me. I so innocent!!

nearly teared that day lor.:(SEE! :( another innocent girl.

her all-time-favourite dialogue;"Relax lah!"

hahaha

Sabo once. sabo twice. sabo thrice. lol she's super high that day! must be e alcoholic effect. haha.

Pole dancing or tree dancing? LOL.

hehe super busy e whole morning. in e end got to eat alone.

oh so lonely lonely.

Traffic light colours. the lovely girls.

hugs.:)all right, i`m heading out to`ve night supper now.

will upload e rest of e photos soon!

Oh yes, looking forward to end Aug.

why?!

coz i`ll be gettting my bonus!!!

hehe

Silly silly, you really makes my heart skips a beat.

I loves chatting and going out with you.

I loves e night ride back home with you.

I loves e care and concern u`ve showered me

eversince we became closed.

I loves e way u makes me smile.

I loves e way u tells me;" Everyting going to be all right

when i cried n complaint my sorrows n unhappiness to u."

I loves it when u called me naughty, silly or wateva

nickname u gives me whneva u sms me.

I loves it more whn i tells u not to misses me so much whn u`re alone

yet u replied me;" I really missyou very much"

and always reminds me to takecare of myself whneva u're not with me.

I really treasures you so much.

muackssss!

2008-07-18T02:07:00.000-07:00

So much happenings going on these 2 weeks.

Happy and sad ones.

Well, time flies.

Another friend of mine whom i`ve known for at least

10 yrs left for Aussie to further her studies.

Previously was QL.

And on the 16th July, it was YP.

Parting is always hateful but it's a fact tat we've to accept.

It's all part and parcel of life.

So, we planned a farewell gathering for her on the 12th.

Though this time round, not many were able to make it but at

least they made an attempt to come down

despite how tight thier schedule was on tt day.

Really appreciate the presence of those friends.

Initially we ordered a cake n wanted to give her a

surprise but our 'surprise' went down e drain.

haha.

Stil, at e end of e gathering, we could see that

she was so soo happy n touched.

So she went around bidding all of us a lovely hug.

That lovely girlfriend of ours.

Bon voyage my dear girl.

We'll wait for you to be back to S'pore.:)

After e gathering, met up with yvonne at JE mrt. Headed down to vivo to meet up with e rest to celebrate Derek's birthday. Dine out at vivo, chilling out session at Sentosa. 1 year older again n 1 year being friend with you. So in total, we've known each other for 16 yrs. wa. haha.

Oh yes, not to forget; HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAWEI!!

(14 July).

I still rmbed your bdae date vividly.

1 day before Derek's bdae.

Please say u're touched! hehe

May you blessed with lots of happiness and take care of

yourself when u're training hard for life saviour.

Past few days, i was chatting with charles at nite and i realised i really missed this friend soo much. Glad tat life's still going pretty on well for him except the fact tat i received a bad new frm him. He'll be flying off to Wallaby trip at Aussie not for holiday but for NS reservist. aiyoo. poor boy. haha.

At the same time, someone so precious to me,

makes me touched again!

It was even more dramatic than those tv shows being

screened on channel 8 or channel u.

I could feeel e speed of my heart beat.

Thanks for e pleasant surprise.

U makes me smile all day and all nite.

hehe

hugs :)

It's 2am now.

My eye is closing soon.

Shall upload e rest of e photos again..

Gonna tug in to bed as i`m working tml

and and.. ..

It's my dearest girl, lovely n sexy cloudy birthday cum beach party at Sentosa tml nite!!

It's my turn to sabo her finally.

hehe

2008-07-05T00:05:00.000-07:00

Something to share:

When life brings you to a crossroad,

Stop and stand there and think before making nasty decisions

But do not stand for too long as opened doors of

opportunities might come close to you.

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I decided to be a goood girl and stayed home without

reaching home late midnite this weekend.

So I`ve my Sat off this weeek.

Like finallly!!!

hehe.

A big thanks to my awesome colleagues for thier lunch treats

at a restaurant at HBF last Sunday!

They're reallly a bunch of super sweeet colleagues.

I was chatting with my beloved girls

(Lili, Baoxuan) and sweetest Jige.

They told me how much they misses me n in return,

i told them I misses them more than they do.

Really feel bad not joining them for dinner e past

few days as i`ve class at nite n they

had another gathering next Monday!

I can`t join them for dinner again too.

Sigh.

Lets plan one during weekend next next weeek all right?

Met up with girlfriend on friday!

Headed to bugis.

Bought several tops n had dinner there.

I realised, although both of us're busy with our own

lifes but i`m soo glad that we still

bothered to find alittle time for each other every week.

It's so much better than 1 year ago.

Heartfelt lovess.:)

As for today, headed out to meet up with a friend

in e early afternoon at Clementi.

Headed down to Edwin's one mth old baby girl celebration.

He's one of my super duper awesome friend ever.

I`ve no idea why we juz love to praise each other often.

His comforting words and encouragement always makes me

feeel - so - loved!

We know it in our mighty heart that we really

treasure n care for each other.

Right silly number two?

We gave hongbao for his baby girl and in return,

he insisted that we should take a box of this gift back home.

After going down to his house, headed down to Jurong Point to meet up with dearest Maggie for our usual chatting sessions. She's also another awesome girl i`ve ever seen. She's one who`ll sms me almost everyday n wishes me goood morning or goood nite.

I always tell her that she seems to be my 'lover' or

rather someone who has fallen in love with me

(ooops, i`m not a lesbian anyway)

who really bother to ask me how i've been everyday and

send me sillly messages to make my day seems so bright.

Loveyou girl.

Thankyou for the treat n the lovely gift!:)

I tink i saw Anson on coincidental on e way back to Jurong Point!!!

hehe.

But am in a rush to meet up with a friend so did not call him up.

Had a light dinner and home sweet home.

As for tml, I`ve a wedding dinner to attend at nite!

My cute dad came home happily n passed me this donut!

I asked him why he bought me this.

He say;" Aren`t e donut cute?!"

loll.

Cover page for one of our project assignment for Real Estate and Finance Management! :)

Goodnite and takecare ya alll.:)

There are moments in our life

when you reallly misses someone

that you want to pick them from your dreams

and and..

hug them for real!

Have you guys ever felt this way before?

2008-06-26T01:34:00.000-07:00

Everyting happens for a reason.

People change so that you can learn to let go.

Thing goes wrong so that you appreciate them when they are right.

You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself

And sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together

- Marilyn Monroe

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Bought this dress via papergirlsshop two mths ago i think.

Wanted to wear it soo badlyyy when e stock arrived at my house but i guess i needed to slim down 5 kilo more to look slim on my body.

hehe

Looking forward to meet up with girlfriend after work tml and we're going to town again. hahaa

A short update and ends an enrty with that silly friend who forced me to put my face as my screensaver and print-screen it while chatting with him at work.

2008-06-23T00:08:00.000-07:00

June is going to end in a blink of an eye.

July is reaching in one week time.

Remembered i blogged about entering into a new company one year ago, and after one year, which is NOW,

it is my one year anniversary with GKE.

Reallly can't believe my eyes because in between when i am studying and coping alone at work,

i reallly thought of giving up although

my heart and mind always tellls me not to.

Working is like you're in a love relationship;

coz when you fall in love with your work or job scope and

it sinks so deeply before we realise,

we simply can`t get out of it.

Although i could not answer myself how long will

I be with this company but i hope to create as many happy moments as i can here.

:)
Ok. back to some happpy stuffs.
June's crazy.
Watched 3 movies this month.
First is sex and the city, second is kungfu panda and third is incredible hulk.
wow.
Luckily i only pay for 1 movie ticket.
hehe.

So like finallly, met up with girlfriend last friday after work. Wheneva we wan to meet up with each
other, our timing will clash.
Either she's not available or i`m not available.
:(
So headed down to town to meet with each other.

And guess guess who i saw in the mrt on coincidence?!

That's him!!! hahaa

So surprised.
We were standing so closed to each other yet i didn`t see him. Thus he called me n we got soo excited.
It's as if i`ve lost in touch with him for ages
and finallly get to see his cheeeky face.
Or probably myself who is feeeling this way.
Can`t believed both of us screamed so loudly in e train
and all pair of eyes around us're looking at us.
so paiseh.
Before I alighted at my stop, we gave each other a big hug.
:)
cheeky, plan meet-up next mth all rightt.

Ok. so where am I?
so like finallly get to meet up with her and we gave each other
a lovely hug.
Had suki sushi for dinner and had our usual chats and gossips. hahaa.
The girlfriend who always makes me teared for don't know how many times eversince i know her.
Hate you la but actually deep inside out;
u know i love you

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this much and so much soo much!
so ironic rightt.

Saturday ended work at 3pm.
Headed home quickly as friends're coming to my hse in e evening. In e end stayed up and chatted till the next morning.
Super exhausted for words.
After that took a shower and toook a cab down to work.
This mth payroll is reallly hectic.
Worked till 5pm.
Felt so relieved when i completed my tasks and
Home Sweet Home.
Finally had a decent dinner with my family.
Home-coooked foood is the best!
hahaa.

Can`t wait for this weeekend.
(Friday, Saturday n Sunday).
Will be meeting up with all e lovely sweethearts.
Lastly, thanks EY.
I really love you love you.
You really got a piece of sweeet tongue and forever`ll make my day seems so bright whneva we chat on the phone.
So tell me how could i bear to dump u aside too
when u`re feeling blue one day?!
hehe

That night when i`m feeeling so down,
I decided and went to meet up with him.
I follow my heart tells me to although in e first place was alittle unrelunctant.
He knew i was troubled yet he did not say anything.
In e end, he gave me a reallly strong hug.
I see through his eyes and at tat point of time,
i really felt so fortunate to have a friend like him.
The intensity of my feeeling stopped.
I sense sumting is troubling him too but he still
consoled me in whateva means he can.
With these 8 words, "Everyting will be fine. It is all fine!"
At that point of time, my affection towards him
grows deeper and greater.
That hug spoke more than what he could,
of great love and at e same time,
i`m feeeling so lost n helplessness.
Because i felt that i did not do my part to make him smile.
So from today onwards, i wish that i can have his smile.
Stay happpy coz u knows that i really care n treasures you.

2008-06-12T00:01:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Hongyu!

His birthday is tomorrow which is friday the 13th.

I will never forget this unauspicious date.

I dun rmbed if i ever shared with you guys.

Remembered about 10 yrs ago, whn i was in primary school days,

i went to attend a friend birthday party held at her house condo

(Parc Oasis).

It was actuallly friday the 13th.

I could remember this day vividly.

Reason being was because we girls were trapped in the lift.

We were screaming and shouting in e lift.

Pressed e bell yet no one came to save us.

Somemore, the lift stopped at 13th floor.

How unlucky!

my goodness.

So errie and scary.

Luckily i`m not alone.

After about half an hour, the lift door opened.

From that day onwards, i swear i`ll never take the lift again anymore especially on this date.

Oh yes, this's a true story.

Don`t assume that i make it up k.

I think of her last nite.

Misses laughing at silly things with her and misses her big and bubbly eyes.

Can`t wait to give u a big BIG hug honeyyy..

2008-06-09T00:03:00.000-07:00

It's reallly heartbreaking to hear a bad new from her.
Taking her compassionate leave now as her beloved dad had juz passed awy.
Still she msn me and to ensure that i`m fine!
I Love You Dear! :)

Stay Strong ok.

2008-06-07T01:16:00.000-07:00

When i`m feeeling blue, i`m glad i`ve friends like them who made my day!

(See below! Apologies, i`ve forgotten to printscreen e rest of e peeps who actually msn me to cheer me up.)

Zillions of thanks were bubbling in my heart!

Thank You my dear girl. I know u`ll see this! I`m so happy for you la. Glad that everyting is over for you now.

I missyou!

Good new is we`re meeting up next Tuesday.

oh yeah finally!!

HAHAHA.

I reallly scared him that night.

Thankyou for sending me home.

Little thoughts like this really make me happy and touched. :)

Past two days, headed down to Jurong East after work to meet up with LiJing to pass her her advance birthday gift.

It's been long.

Was really happy to see her though.

After that, headed down to vivo city to get some stuffs

and went down to QH birthday party.

Reached there about 10pm.

Poor him.

Being sabo and the cake being smashed on his pretty face.

hahaa. my goodness.

Happpy Birthdayy once again.

Saturday, headed down to bugis after work.

It's shopping time!!!

Poor me only had about 3 hrs to shop coz I had a meeting with Jess, Chris and Sky in the evening to GuiLin view to take photos n videos for our project.

Everyting was done in a fast pace and we headed to the nearest prata shop for my favourite egg prata.

It was Jess's treat because she was late.

All thanks to sky's idea.

hehe.

Anyway, I`ve a one week break starting frm next weeek.

Saddening me needed to`ve a make-up lesson on Monday.

shrugs.

Well, going to have a busy week though.

Hunny, is sunday confirm?

And guess who's going to be 1 year older next week?!

That's him!
hehe

2008-06-03T00:44:00.000-07:00

Listening to my MP3; the songs made me ponder.

Especially for long journeys, i would have plenty of time to pay careful attention to the lyrics.

They relate really well to life experiences, and make me sink into the DEEPEST thoughts.

Thinking of the happiest and melancholic moments of life.

It's not totally bad to think of those moments;

cause to me,

being emotional doesn`t necessarily spells bad.

Being emotional just means giving myself time

to think deeper and clearer

and maybe looking at things in a bigger picture.

It's all about giving myself my own space, to have

some undisrupted thoughts.

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I really misses her!

I misses her voice and phonecalls when she`ll call us everyday without fails to ensure that we're doing fine.

I misses her cooking.

I misses going supermarket with her to buy her favourite chicken and roasted ducks back home.

I misses accompanying her to the chinese garden for a stroll or botanic garden with her to see

her favourite pretty flowers and plants.

I misses bringing her out to anywhere wheneva i`m free.

To hold her hand tight and never let go.

I misses her wheneva she calls and tells me she misses us and we will ask her to come over our house to stayover.

I misses her calling me 'silly' in hokkien.

In short, I misses every tweeny little bit and

all the happy and sad moments with her.

My lovely grandmother.

Those nights when we teared so much til we have

no more tears left on the last day.

Sad to say, that was the last time we see her smile so happily.

This day spells her most important and happiest day in her whole life.

At least she gets to see it coz all e while; it was her wish, her dream to see both of them getting married.

Upon writing this entry, my tear rolled down my cheek again.

Grandma i reallly misses you alot!

2008-05-28T06:31:00.000-07:00

I can`t sleep.

Don`t know whyyy.

so..

shall update an entry before preparing for work.

All smiles.

At least she knows i cared.

Love you laaaa.

hugs..

2008-05-26T00:11:00.000-07:00

I want to watch this!

hehe.

Hopefully it`s nice.

2008-05-26T00:09:00.000-07:00

Past due pics!

The 'unglam' side of us

Be nice and don`t laugh at us

hehe

I shall present the BEST award to all of them for the last three pics..

hahaa.

2008-05-26T00:01:00.000-07:00

Presenting to you:

Baby Ethan!

Aren`t he cute?

Even sleeping also makes a good pose for us to take pic lor.

hehe :)

My one and only beloved mummy.

Dearest beloved one and only grandfather.

I guess he's e most happiest man on that day!

2008-05-25T21:08:00.000-07:00

What is love?!

To me, being in love means to love that person with everyting and not expecting anything back in return.

Every bit of our effort and every drop of tear means love.

This is called selfless love or unconditional love.

Love doesn`t meant we`ve to use it on bgr

but to use it on all our loves ones around us.

(ie; our family and friends).

So treasure and be happy with what we have!

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Well, I have a good rest this weekend.

Good rest means having 8 hours of sleep.

Ever don`t know since when, i`ve been having

less than five hrs of sleep a day.

The most six hours.

Pathetic isnt it?

Yes, i know i shouldn`t grumble.

Anyway, i`ve a habit of reminiscing the past wheneva i`m alone. Especially late at nite when all my family members had fallen asleep.

To me, it`s the best time to do self- reflection. Friends`ve been telling me;"It's late at night, no point reminiscing and thinking too much when actually we could have a sweet dream at nite."

I couldn`t help it but to xplain to them; that's my characteristics since young.

I can`t change this character at all.

Of course i`ll not stop at past and i'll appreciate e present n look forward to the future.

hahaa

So like i was looking through my past photo albums, i realised those were e days i was so crazy and happy. loll.

(You guys who understands me well will know what i meant right.)

Those days when i woke up super early in e morning

and reached home super late at night.

The late nights activties with friends and not

to forget having late nite suppers almost everyday.

Come to think of it, there were lots of happy memories in it.

And i think i looked prettty retarded in e past.

2008-05-24T00:33:00.000-07:00

Confusion.

I hope time could stop here.

Sometimes i wish that human being has no emotion.

So we will not bother about how we feel for others

or how others feel for you.

After so much happenings, i told myself that i

shouldn`t be bothered of you anymore.

I should care n concern less of you not

because u're not e friend who is not-worth-it,

but to make a distant to our friendship.

Sounds silly i know.

But again, whn u came n approached me,

i still gave in and really can't bear to leave you alone.

Sometimes, i can`t deny that u`re a great friend.

To e extent that i`ve endless

thankyou to tell you.

Someone who`ll be there for me whneva i

nag and complain my unhappiness with you.

Someone who`ll give great advises, though sometimes

we might have different opinions but still we could

talk about sumting that i've not shared with others before.

To be true, you`re still one of e boy-friends whom i duno

why i dare to share my stuffs for you to know.

You know sumting, whneva you approached me for help,

i can`t deny that i`ll give in and

tried my best to help you if i can.

Until this one fine day, u led me in a state of confusion.

You really make me so so confused.

Your actions and your words.

I dun know if u feel e way i`m feeling now

or am i tinking too much.

I hope you don't meant it.

This is e first time i talked about you in my blog.

I know you might get to see this.

Afterall, what i wanna say is; my silly friend,

i hope we could go back to e past like we used to be.

Those were e days u make me smile.

I still treasure you, as always. :)

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Happy Birthday Victoria!

One of my top favourite pri.school friend whom i still treasured alot even till now.

2008-05-23T01:56:00.000-07:00

First great grandson in the family.

Offically having five generations in the family.

It's a pity that my grandmother can`t get to see him.

If only she could endure a few mths more,

her wish of being the fifth generation

great grand mother would have come true.

Luckily my grandfather gets to see this little cutie pie here.

hehe :)

Presenting Ethan!

Good Nites!:)

2008-05-22T00:02:00.000-07:00

I reallly misses these girls, alot alot!

I still rmbed both of them loved teasing me and exclaimed that my eyes looked like a cat!
CAT?!
loll

Missess those sunshine days..

How have all of you beeen?!

2008-05-21T01:35:00.000-07:00

Reminiscing.
(See e pic below)

This year, it's the third time she celebrated my bdae.

To be exact, it's the third time we cut cake together; coincidental our bdae falls one day before

and after one another.

Although she couldn`t make it to my party and

shared the joys n happiness with me,

still she gave me a surprise again.

Knowing that i`m studyin and she

headed to my sch to fetch me

on one Tuesday blue and gave me a surprise.

No words can express how perfect this girl is.

Year 2007

Sumting mushy. hehe.

I used to say she`ll call me sweety while i`ll call her lovely whneva we sms, msn or call each other. And now she gave me another nickname again. that silly girll.

Three simple words, short and sweet: I Love You! :)

2008-05-19T07:20:00.000-07:00

If you're happy and you know it, clap your hands

*clap clap*

If you're happy and you know it, clap your hands

*clap clap*

If you're happy and you know it, then your face will surely show it.

If you're happy and you know it, clap your hands

*clap clap*

sounds silly.

but this is for you, my dear.

so soo. can i have your smile now?

2008-05-17T02:03:00.000-07:00

helllo. it's been long, yes i know!
What have i been busy with?

ok. sch has started for me since a mth ago.

6 weeks of holidays ended again.

Seriously, i regretted taking seven modules this term.

Still considering dropping one module.

At e same time, even if i dropped one module, one of the sem i still needed to earn back that credit unit.

aiyoo. super troubled.

Frankly speaking, really exhausted taking so much modules and seems like twenty- four hrs a day is never enough for me especially the never ending assignments, tests and projects. Somehow or rather, e-learning and projects're really

such a waste of time.

haiz. I need a break again!

What motivates me to go school is a friend who never fails to enlighten me and encourages me to move on. Can`t imagine if we're never in the same class next term.

Really touched by his every tweeny little bits of actions.

I mean he's really nice n really gentleman.

I hope he gets to see this coz i want to let him know that

he's really more than a goood friend.

ThankYou so much EY!

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Happy Birthday My Beloved Girls!

Birthday - 3rd May

Birthday - 15th May

We met up and headed to KTV! Finally gets to see jigee again. That day both of us so shyy la. hahaa. why ar? hehe. At least all four of us still managed to catch up and haf an advance birthday celebration.

:)

Anyway, back to my life.

Ok. I juz entered the path of twenties on 6th May.

Someone asked me;" How does it feels?"

Frankly speaking, i was filled with lots of emotions.

hahaa.

Really don`t know how to xplain to u guys.

But i guess i'll have more expectations now compared to whn i`m younger.

Life's like a salted fish with no dreams.

Yes, of course, i`ll not overstretched myself.

hahaa.

Well, I held my 20th birthday celebration this year.

Many many many THANKSS to all who came down

to my party on 3rd May.

Especially my family members
(relatives n cousins)

who came down to help me.

Big big thanks!

That day was infact one of the happiest day in my life. Finally get to see soo many friends whom i`ve not seen for ages.

Luckily we still keeep in touch even if we dun meet up.

Really apologies for being not a good host.

Super touched for words.

Thanks for the saboing and e surprises too la k.

it's a compliment by the way.

really cant believed u guys can tink of such idea lor.

hahaa.

PS: And actually hor, before e cutting cake session, I`ve a speech to say. But. really sad tat i can`t read up e speech.

hope to seeyou guys soon and at e same time, please please takecare and jiayou!!

My 20th Birthday cake.

Sabo-ing One

Sabo-ing Two

Sabo-ing Three
Thanks all once again. hugs:)

PS: Here's sumting for girlfriend. I dun know wat happened to you recently. U seems really down. Msn you, you did not reply neither. Actually i really feel sad whn you ignore my msn tags. You know i teared. yaya. silly i know. Wanted to ask you out. Whn're u free?! I missyou. like seriously.

2008-03-16T23:30:00.000-07:00

Thanks god!

I managed to pass all my modules and promoted to term two. Jumps with joy.

My heart beats so fast e past days before

the exam results released.

We were informed that our results released at 9am.

However, my classmate smsed me at 0831am and asked;

"how's your result?"

That's when i knew that our results was already in

our mailbox before 9am.

I knew i shouldn`t be too happy yet.

Coz term two will be getting more difficult and tedious.

But before sch reopens, i hope i could enjoy my sch

holidays as much as I can now

coz i know i`ll be as busy as a bee from

next mth onwards.

At times, i can`t deny that i really feels suffocated

when i juggled so much tings at one time.

Thus, i always comfort myself and look onto

the bright side of life.

I know i'll have a bright future ahead if i works hard now.

So this's a test for me now.

At least i know how far can my ability goes.

Indeed, the moment everyting's over and u gets

to see results, this is when u know that your effort pays off.

Even it's not, at least we know that we`ve tried our best!

I truly appreciates friends who`ve been

there for me as always.

Thanks for all e supports and encouragments.

Thanks for telling me that;' I can make it!"

Thanks for enlightening me with all the beautiful

messages and phonecalls.

Just never thanks u guys enough.

hehe.

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I realised... ...

I see my life as a story, one which i`m constantly adding chapters to. And in this story, characters comes and go. But even if they were in it for just a fleeting moment, they would have left an indelible mark. So i hope from today onwards, all of you can be part of my story.

2008-03-09T19:54:00.000-07:00

Yes. finallly! School holiday break's here.

been waiting for this day to come eversince sch starts.

At least for one month, i could freeze and take a good break

as i do not have to attend classes right after work, rushing

assignments, tutorials or even doing projects till the middle of the night.

Hence, i still lovess my friends in sch.

Thanks for being there for each other and helping one another

during the past 5 mths.

love lovess!

Anyway, work`ve been reallly stressful at times.

still learning how to cope with the numerous number

of workloads at work.

On the other hand, i`m glad and fortunate to`ve really

great colleagues at work to motivate me.

For example; like u guys know, i seldom eat breakfast.

And a colleague who always worried that i would suffer from gastric

pain will always buy breakfast for me and insisted that i must eat in e morning.

Not only that, sumtimes i`m so sick of the lunch menu at

work yet another colleague always coook soup

or other types of foods to work.

Little thoughts like this reallly touched my heart.

Met up with different groups of friends too.

Missess those late nights out, ktv sessions n buffet sessions.

Finally, we met up to catch up with each other again.

gonna rush off to meet up with dearest someone.

shall continue in my next entry.

Oh yes, before that,

I`ve got a piece of good new to share.

i`m happy that i`m promoted to HR Executive

with effect from this mth.

Hard work finally pays off.

2008-02-01T00:08:00.000-08:00

Someone told me this:

It has been said that when a person falls in love gradually, that relationship is extremely strong. - you`ll get to know the person bit by bit; bit by bit, sinking so deeply before we realise and when we finally do, we simply can`t get out of it or distance away from him.

while...

for Love At First Sight..

It has been said to be highly impactful at the point of time. - but as you progress forward, differences arises and that passion and excitment that were evoked at first sight diminish and cannot be sustained over time. Slowly the differences make it so difficult for the relationship to continue and it ends uglily.

How far do you think this is true?

2008-01-31T00:09:00.000-08:00

What is LIFE?!

Life is...

Nostalgic : when we reminisce about the past.

Alluring : when the prospects of a better future aheads awaits.

Trash : when we who governs our own life decides to waste it away.

Joyful : when we create new beautiful memories with the RIGHT people.

Stressful : when we work towards fulfilling expectations we have of ourself and those others impose on you.

Volatile : nothing is constant in this world and it is this very change that propels is.

Unexpected : because the things that usually occur are those that we did not wish for.

Tainted : with the past mistakes we wish to erase yet unforgettable.

Inimitable: every life is unique, so let`s stop wishing we are somebody else.

Learning to love : when we truthly know how to; maybe we will be able to understand alittle more about life.

Obscure: still learning to make sense of everything.

Imaginative : it has no boundaries; when we DARE TO DREAM!

Scandalous: with the gossips and bitching that keeps us informed, entertained and occupied.

I read this somewhere.

Wondered how many of these points do

u guys agree with?!

Of course, there`s more to life than

what i`ve listed down now.

What is life?!

I always pondered and i haven`t

stopped wondering.

I`ve been trying and working hard

at what i`ve known as life!

So what is this life i`m working for?

I`m still pondering.........

So do you wanna search for the

answer to life with me?